TeenHelp - Triggering (Abuse): What was this

I don’t know what to call this I don’t know if it’s even that bad Indont know where to ask so I wanted to ask here i was groomed when i was like 15 by my boyfriend who was 23, im curious about one part because i don’t think it really counts as anything at all and i feel bad for being so affected by it because we never djd anything in person he’d make me video call him this is gross sorry he’d jack off to me and talk like he was here n like . guide me??through fucking myself i’m sorry i just found this forum i hope im doing it right i just dont know what to call it because i dont know if its even that bad