Well, hello there, eating disorder.
 

I've been doing so well... I thought I was doing better anyway.

Well, today is the end of that. I started a new job almost half a year ago and at this new job I have to listen to a girl complain about her weight every single day. This girl is the size of one of my thighs... :mad: She mentions her exact weight ALL THE TIME and brags about how she doesn't have any stretch marks (she had a baby but it was several months premature) and she thrives off the male attention she gets. I used to get a lot of male attention... But now it's few and far between. I've gained quite a bit of weight this past year... I went up a few pant sizes even.

I can't fit into any of my old clothes, I feel disgusting and fat, I have to listen to this girls b.s every single day, I no longer feel beautiful, and I have so many emotions pouring through... So, tonight I did it. I made myself throw up. Almost a year of not throwing up and I threw it away tonight. And... I. Felt. Powerful. And... Disgusting. Pathetic. Stupid. I also exercised like crazy tonight with a corset on.

I'm done feeling like crap but I know either way I'll feel like it. I would prefer to fit into my old clothes though while feeling like crap.

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