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I'm an idiot.

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Thanks. :)
It means a lot that you look the time to reply to silly old me. :D

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Sure, sure I'm not.

My orchestra teacher (<3 orch) gave me extra time, so I'm not completely freaking out.

You're sad goddammit. And guess what? I can't do shit.
It all just fucks with my mind. *sigh*

I'm thinking about someone and how I wish they would eat. :glare:

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Good, good, at least you're getting exta time :)
I think they probably did eat :glare:

Nao, umm, theres that one thing, i forget now, hmm...
Oh yeah, what am I thinking :O
I be thinking of why me so stupid about everything :(
I dun wan to be :(

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iron maiden

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black sabbath

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ac dc thundestruck

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Are you sure they ate? :glare: Do you promise? :glare:

You aren't stupid about everything, I know that for a fact.

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Yes, I promoise :glare:
But I am stupidz :(
:hug:
I'm secretely 437, mabe I'm too old too :dem:
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Me thinking of bowling and wanting it to be fun, if it isn't, I'll be unamused, and angry, oh so angry.....

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Pinky Swear? :glare:

And you should eat now too, you know. :glare:

You aren't stupidz! D:
:hug:

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I just want you to be ok. :'(

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I wish you wouldn't have called me "mom."
I know that I'm a nag, and that it was probably kind of a joke, but its making me feel really shitty. I keep thinking that I'm like my mom since you said that... :'(

I just don't have enough courage to tell you to your face.

I know, I'm completely pathetic. :(

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If it makes you feel any better, I'm 24. :p

Anyway...I'm thinking about just how much my life seems to have gone into freefall at the moment, and how I'm going to try and get it back on track. No moments of inspiration so far, but I know I have to change something soon...

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The only thing I like about me is my eyes. :bleh:

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I look forward to it. EVERY FUCKING DAY.
And I totally blew it. :'(

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Pinky swear :hug:
You aren't pathetic, I'm so sorry, I was joking :o
:hug:
Listen, you are NOTHING like your mum, k?
You're too awesome :o
It's ok, you can do it another day :o
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I wanna help you :o
I want food :o
I was supposed to be playing pokemon :o
I wanna do something greedy :o
I wanna hug you, all of you :o
I wanna do too many things :o

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I need to take a step back, and stop trying to do everything that I'm trying to do. I can't keep going on like this, because I know that its running me down, physically and emotionally. I don't need that with all the other things that I struggle with. I can't keep focusing on all these other people when I'm having problems too. I'm losing myself. I've lost myself. Thats one of the reasons that I haven't been on Live Help lately.
I've had more breakdowns over the past couple days than I can count both hands, and its bad. I know its bad. And the way I feel...its not NORMAL. I'm different than everyone else. If I told anybody, they would see me like I'm broken. Like I need to be fixed. Like I'm a freak. I would become more of an outcast, and I would be bullied by everyone more. I don't need to be put through more abuse, but I can't keep living like this. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.
I can't live with my brother and mother anymore, that much is clear. Not with what he's threatening, and not with what she does. It makes everything worse, and I've gone from being cut free-ish to SHing almost nightly, because of little things that push me over the edge. I'm tired of being a loaded gun, something that people watch (or at least should) out for and tip-toe around. I want to be that happy little girl again. One that didn't realize that something was different about her, or at least didn't care.

I don't think I like who I've become.
My brother says that I don't care about others, that I'm psycho, that I'm a rude slutty bitch who deserves to die...
What if he's right?
On second thought, I don't think I even want to know.

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im thinking that school starts back thrusday and im in year 12 this year :nosweat:

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Why I thought that ODing twice in a period of about 5 hours was a good idea is beyond me.

But now I feel like absolute crap.
Yay. :glare:

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that I should skip school tomorrow. Don't wanna meet people. :'(

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seriously don\'t wanna be here.

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I want to end time.

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I\'m thinking I\'m the "invisible girl" and how my friends at school seem to ignore me now. And about a difficult decision I made; I don\'t know if it was right and what will happen and I\'m really worried about everything.

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I\'m dead on the inside, but not on the outside.
Why not just make it even?
There\'s not really a point living when I\'m already dead.

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Should I skip school tomorrow?

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I wish i wasn\'t sick..

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I\'m thinking about school tomorrow... so awkward. and that my mom would kill me when she comes out. It\'s like 2:10 am right now lol

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Really want to just,
ugghhhh.

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That I have a weird thing for vests, men\'s suit jackets, top hats, and mustaches O.o