TeenHelp - Confusion

[SIZE="a"]SEXUALITY JOUNREY STORY!!!!!!!: Fifth grade - I got (trigger warning starts) sexually assaulted by a teacher at my school (trigger warning ends) and so I kept thinking nah, I'm a trans dude who likes women(Reminder: I've never liked anybody at this point). Sixth grade - I finally come out of the closet as trans, he/him, I realized I'm Bi because I get my first crush on a...male? Yep. A male. He was two years older than me, sweet at first but then got overprotective. Seventh grade - (GENDER UPDATE: no longer trans - cis female) me and that boy started dating, I was madly in love, I'd do anything for him. A few months roll around and I'm over it, he's too needy, not my type anymore, and I break up, he says he'll kill himself so I stayed in the relationship, few more months roll around and I start liking someone else, another boy??? So I break up and ignore any manipulation tactics he has and after a few weeks I get back out there and tell this boy I like him. We get together, major red sign when he said: "can you not tell anyone? I don't want my friends to know I'm with you. you're...different." ok but the whole school can know about your ex??? alr..alr...he rarely talked to me, sat with me when we did talk, flirted a lot, whatever, he was my dream guy, until...i lost interest a month in, maybe Not my dream guy? I broke up with him because I didn't "love' him anymore. I get back with my ex, the toxic guy. A few weeks ago we broke up and I said fuck men and said I was a lesbian, but here's the problem, I've never liked a women a day in my life, they're pretty, kind, bubbly, sure, but I've never romantically been into a woman. I always thought I was because I cared more for my friends than they cared about me but you know what...that was just me being a good friend.
So AM I FUCKING STRAIGHT? I don't know??? I'd be OPEN to dating a female, that's the thing. And I have before. But it was experimenting. I didn't like the kiss of a woman, I loved the cuddles, the gift giving(dw I gave in return!), the talk about moving in together when we were of legal age, it was sweet, but I didn't totally feel...attracted I guess? I felt something, similar to butterflies but different...WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ONNNN???[/size]