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Re: What caused you to have your first self harm episode? - June 20th 2013, 06:10 PM
I'm not really sure what caused me to cut for the first time. Maybe it was a combination of hating myself, not being treated well by everyone around me and hating the day to day unchanging dull routine of my life plus the never-ending memories and reminders that certain things bring because they link me to the abuse I experienced as a child.
I've done other self harm for a really long time though (I cannot even remember when I started some things), like picking scabs and other things.

"i don't care your intentions. I just want you to know my self-hatred never took me where I wanted to go. At the end of the day...I can pick at the pain but I can't cut it away."