[mindflower]

Hi there, first of all, know that you aren't alone, and there is hope.

To answer your question, yes, cutting and other forms of self harm can be addictive to some people, and while some can control it on their own and quit, others have troubles doing so and can need medical help and medicines to help them recover. Everyone is different in their self harm habits and needs, I know this from experience and from being a part of TeenHelp here. I've been self harming for almost 2 years, and many of my friends have done it since. They've all stopped, but I somehow haven't, and that is partially my proof for the addiction I have to it. I'm like you on this though: I'm not sure if I know exactly why I can't stop. And the fact is, a lot of people can't explain why they do it, but its a constant desire and escape, some for the pain, some for the blood, there isn't just one logical answer. Its not scientific, and those who haven't experienced self harm or depression have a hard time processing why we do it or why we wouldn't want help for it.

The thing is though, there is help, and there is recovery. Like I said, I know lots of people that have been in the same place you are, being emotionally wounded and somehow finding comfort or relief in something like cutting. There are, however, alternatives, and though none are going to have the same feeling, they have helped a lot of people. We have a list on here if you haven't yet seen it, here, that I think would be great for you to look at, and to speak out, talk to someone about it. Whether it be a friend, a teacher, family, or going to a counselor yourself depending on your age, or whether you tell someone face to face or in a letter, there is no right or wrong answer but it is the best to reach out. And believe me, I've struggled SO hard with that, I would sometimes get mad if someone found out and told, but you know, they only do it because they care. Same as them asking you why you do this to yourself, they want to know so they can understand. It is difficult. But there is a bright side, the rainbow after the storm, you know?

I always tell this to everyone, and I always mean it: Stay strong We're all here for you, I'm here for you, don't give up