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Hey there!

I'm sorry you're struggling, I know how painful of a place that this is. When you mentioned that you have an untrue perception, you are recognizing that it is definitely untrue and that there could be an issue with thinking that way.

As for your hips and thighs, I know how that feels as well. However, think of it as a good thing if you can - it means that you're capable of creating life and that is a beautiful thing.

Every time you want to criticize yourself, look at a part of you that you like. Do you like your eyes, perhaps? Your arms, or your hair? And embrace what you like about being you. I'm sure you're a good person and have great personality qualities, so really try to empathise yours.

Lastly, I would recommend talking to someone about purging. You don't deserve to go through this, I promise. In the meantime, when you feel the need to purge, try to stay distracted. I'm going to link you to the eating disorder's video page so you can check it out.