[Ennui.]

Hey there,

Maybe one thing you can do is put reasons to recover near your self harm tool. Basically, any reason you have for not self harming, write it down. It could be that you know that self harm doesn't really help but instead makes things more complicated in the end, that you don't want the scars, or that you're worth a lot more than self harm. The reasons you list can be big or small, but write down any you have. Also write down encouraging quotes and pictures. If you leave this list with your self harm tool, you'll see reasons to recover before picking up the tool, and it may give you more of a motivation to put it down and use an alternative instead.

I agree with the previous posters about finding a new alternative as well. It is great that you have tried some such as walking in the past, but remember that sometimes it takes a bit of trial and error to find the alternative that wroks best for you. That list has a lot to try, so it's okay if you need to experiment with a few to find one that works, all that matters is that you're trying to use them!

Remember that even though self harm may seem tempting, it's not worth it. I can tell you are much stronger than this and can get out on top.

-Dez