[Ennui.]

Hey there!

I've moved this to Self Harm because that is the better fitting category.

Why do you think that people hate you? I am so sorry to hear that your best friend left. Maybe she wasn't as true a friend as you thought to begin with if she just up and left you like that. But that doesn't mean that everyone will hate you! Maybe you can join clubs, social groups, and sports teams in school or around town to meet new people who have a common interest with you and who may treat you better.

I am also sorry about your prom! I think that maybe you should find some ways to treat yourself really nice tomorrow. Maybe you can take a warm bath or shower then curl up with a good book or movie, paint your nails, or eat your favorite goodies. Maybe you can get dressed up and go out to one of your favorite places. It may be nice! These are also all ways to take care of yourself in general.

It may also be useful for you to express your emotions through writing, art, music, or even exercise. That way what you are feeling isn't all built up.

But you don't deserve to go through this alone either. There are people out there that care about you so much and want to see you happy, but you have to let them in. This is a link to a list of people who can help. They can give you new ways to cope and solve your problems, and sometimes it can just be nice to have someone to get everything out to without being judged.

You have said something really great here: You want to stop. I think the first step towards recovery is admitting that there is a problem and realizing you want to stop. So, you should be proud of yourself for reaching that step!

This is a link to a list of alternatives to self harm. They are healthier and safer ways to cope with everything that is going on. There are tons there, so try a few until you find some that fit!

You are a really wonderful person, never forget that. You can do this!

-Dez