Hello Calvin
If you feel as if things are bad, why not make a change?
i think its time you got into more societies, and more groups where you'll have more experience that will color your days more
Never ever think that you're worthless, and you aren't even worth any effort. You're so loved and cared for, and it hurts me to see you suffer through this, when you deserve better.
And part of feeling strong and being positive is to think positive. Challenges are there to be overcome.
Experiences are things that you can get if you will yourself to be in the position to experience that experience.
You're more awesome than you know it, and i know that to be true.
Now, stop beating yourself up and start thinking about things that you can do, and how you're better than plenty of other people in your own way. *hugs* stay strong!
I'll always be here for you, and you can rant to me anytime.
I won't be leaving.