[NeuroBeautiful]

When I move out
I can cut all I want
When I move out
I don't have to hide my scars
When I move out
Starving nor overeating will be spoken of
I can stay in bed for days and not go out
No one will have to see me, or think about,
interacting with me,
No one will know I exist,
And if I ended my life,
No one will notice

There was a time, I tried recovery
There was a time, I had a little hope
That moving out would improve my life,
Create a fresh start, heal and grow

This time,
I move out to further destroy,
isolate, relapse in peace,
I wrapped myself up in bandages,
The wounds haven't healed
My heart breaks underneath
Blood oozes out

Maybe I can free up space
For someone who is fighting for their life
I can't put up a fight like I used to
I don't have the energy
I can't cope
Maybe recovery isn't for me