[Kate*]

So, I get to work my ass off for months just to end up in a crappy job I hate and to end up miserable for the rest of my life because I'm not capable of anything else? What's the fucking point of that?! Unlike a "normal" person, I won't be able to "move up" or move on to better things. So not even almost worth it. Should've done it when I wanted to. I can't do this!

As much as I wouldn't want to pull the "elementary school friends" card for a job, I wonder if you're hiring. I'd probably have a better chance there than any other.
Again, not asking for anything handed to me, but a chance would be nice.

I would love to submit that for publication, but even if I didn't even almost go into the gory details of what you all did to me, I'm paranoid that you'll find it and/or turn on me because of it and make things worse for me than you already have.

You know, I'd sort of kind of get it if I had just been a total ass for the last 29 years and deserved everything that's happened to me, but if anything, the opposite is true. I don't know how much longer I can or want to deal with it.

29 in less than a week. I don't think I'm going to see 30.