My anxiety has been so shitty lately. I get that it could improve but it's to the point where I am getting so anxious that I just want to die because it will stop.

I keep thinking about self harm because that 'helps' as well. (It doesn't really but the anxiety does stop for a bit).

I don't know what has led to the increase and my doctor did give me xanax but I don't want to start taking it again.