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Urges (scratching, cutting) -
March 18th 2019, 07:08 AM
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So, I stopped cutting (yay me), but about a month after I stopped having simple urges of cutting, I replaced it with scratching. At first it was a simple scratch up the fore arm to relieve pent up anger when I stopped myself arguing with my mother. I thought nothing of it, the sharp jolt of pain snapped me out and made me feel better, and it left nothing but a three-ten minute red mark up my arm. Then it quickly grew. Instead of one scratch, it was several, then I once I scratched so badly [Edit] It still hasn't healed fully and that was about a month+ ago. I went back to one or a few scratches, sometimes purposefully rehurting the burn (re-scratching, picking at it). Now, just today after three weeks of maximum stress (school, mooting (a law thing) going to shit thanks to my team mate, mum is starting to get to me, online relationship going badly, etc), I suddenly had this urge to scratch my face and scalp. To the point I feel like I need constant pain just to feel okay, itching to grab a knife and cut my head. I know this isn't healthy, I know I need to stop it as fast as I started, but I have no clue how...
Please help!
Last edited by DeletedAccount63; March 19th 2019 at 07:29 AM.
Reason: Changing type of trigger warning and editing out a type of self-harm method since its against CoC
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