[Ennui.]

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through this!

It does not seem fair that your mom won't let you cut your hair just because of your weight. The two things aren't related at all! Do you have another parent who may be willing to help you compromise with your mom or take you to get your hair cut themself?

It actually makes it harder to lose weight when you are starving yourself. Your body tends to go into survival mode, which doesn't help. Are you able to talk to a doctor or nutritionist and develop a diet plan that is healthy and safe?

Remember that skipping meals can lead to more binging later on, so it makes it important to eat balanced meals every day. Think of food as what it is, a way to provide your body with energy and the nutrients that it needs to keeps going. Food isn't "good" or "bad" and everything is okay in moderation.

Identify things that trigger you to either restrict or binge. Do certain things play an important role, like stressors in your life, certain events or activities, or something else? Once you know your triggers it may help you to find ways to cope with them.

Remember not to give the scale control over you and not to give it all the power. You are valuable at any weight. Your worth is not defined by a number on the scale and anyone who says otherwise is wrong.

I know you can do this.