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  1. Silvan
    September 25th 2023 07:33 PM - permalink
    I like the opposite of frozen/frappes, so basically warming stuff, like a coffee with spices (cinnamon, cardamom, turmeric, honey...)
  2. Silvan
    September 23rd 2023 11:34 AM - permalink
    Yeah I like autumn too, especially after the summer heat which was unbearable this year. I'm looking forward to special seasonal coffees in the coffee shops
  3. Silvan
    September 22nd 2023 11:04 AM - permalink
    I'm pretty cool, thanks are you looking forward to autumn?
  4. Arabesque- golfing girl.
    September 21st 2023 10:39 PM - permalink
    Arabesque- golfing girl.
    for you.
  5. Silvan
    September 21st 2023 06:47 PM - permalink
    Heyy Dez~! How are you? xx
  6. Blackwing
    August 7th 2023 02:59 AM - permalink
    Thank you hope you're having a great day
  7. Arabesque- golfing girl.
    July 12th 2023 08:46 PM - permalink
    Arabesque- golfing girl.
    How are you doing? I don't feel well. Have a good day tomorrow.
  8. Arabesque- golfing girl.
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  10. NeuroBeautiful
    June 21st 2023 10:50 AM - permalink
    Happy Belated Birthday. You're always so good about wishing me a happy birthday on time, I should have been more on top of it. Thinking of you and hope you're doing well.

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    About me
    Hey all! My name is Dez, and I am a 26 year old who just graduated with my Masters in Public Health. So I basically just entered the "real world" and have to be an "adult." Ew.

    On any given day if I'm not here you'll find me napping, sitting in therapy, or watching something on Netflix. I'm trying to do this thing called "finding a hobby," so feel free to pass along your favorite books and TV shows.

    I have an interest in sexual health, especially contraceptives, the prevention of sexually transmitted infections as well as HPV and the vaccine in particular. I stand with Planned Parenthood and similar reproductive health organizations. I also have an interest in vaccines.

    I'm still basically trying to figure everything out myself, but feel free to say hello. If I don't answer right away, rest assured that I will when I get a chance! :D


    I became a LiveHelp Operator on December 1, 2011. On January 29, 2012 I changed primaries to HelpLINK Mentor. On April 23, 2012 I became a Self Expression Forum Mod. On October 8, 2012 I became an LGBT+ Forum Mod. On December 1, 2012 I became a Chat Moderator. On February 9, 2013 I became a HelpLINK Moderator. On July 13, 2013 I became a member of the Performance Committee. On August 17 2013, I became an Albums Moderator as well as a member of the Articles Team. On October 13, 2013, I became a Self Harm Forum Mod. On November 16, 2013, I became a member of the Social Networking Team. On December 23, 2013, I became a Social Groups Moderator. On December 23, 2013, I also became a member of the Videos Team. On January 25, 2014, I became a Blogs Moderator. On April 12th, 2014, I became a Project Advisor. On August 31, 2014 I became a member of the newly formed Volunteering Committee. On March 27, 2015 I became a Newsletter Editor. On August 1, 2015 I became part of the Disputes Committee. On August 17, 2015 I became a Forums and Community Officer. On April 30, 2022 I became a Community Team Leader.

    Last updated 5/1/2022
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    I'm here, I'm Queer
    Master’s in Public Health
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  • Interests
    I don't know anymore.
    Oh, various things.
    The Harry Potter movies, The Day After Tomorrow, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Horton Hears a Who, Repo! The Genetic Opera, The Little Mermaid, Finding Nemo, Finding Dory... I don't watch many movies.
    House M.D., In Plain Sight, Nurse Jackie, Rizzoli & Isles, Hell's Kitchen, Once Upon A Time, Necessary Roughness, Chicago Fire, Justice League, Scrubs, Rick and Morty, Bojack Horseman, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Good Doctor, The Good Place, The Resident, 9-1-1
    Portal, Portal 2, The Sims 3 and 4, Plague, Rocket League, Golf With Your Friends, Magicka, then your classic board games.
    Anything that's by Jodi Picoult or talks about real life issues or Ellen Hopkins. Fiction books that talk about real world issues, like self harm.
    I don't like sports.
    My Pepere (grandfather) and my cousin Sophia, as well as her two older sisters Alex and Gabby and their mother, Kristy. Also my niece Madison. :)
    Favorite quotes
    The world is round, so the place that may seem like the end, may also be only the beginning.
    Other interests
    Being a mermaid.
    Eating my sister's food.
    Guinea pigs.
    Sexual health and reproductive rights
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    Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
    Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
    Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
    'Cause you gotta survive


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Posted June 23rd 2023 at 08:20 PM by Ennui. Comments 1
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5/30/23-5/31/23 - I got sent back to the hospital by my therapist because of an increase in depression and suicidal thoughts. She wasn't wrong to send me because I was spiraling towards another suicide attempt but I still fought it. She's also talking about sending me to residential treatment but I'll fight that.
The cop that met me at my house gave me a whole lecture on my bipolar and said how he has tons of experience with bipolar. He kept saying I need my meds adjusted even though I told...

Posted May 17th 2023 at 02:19 AM by Ennui. Comments 1
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I have been out of the hospital for a little over a month now. Normally I'm at least relatively stable when I get out of the hospital but right now I'm still not doing well at all.

My house is a wreck. I haven't cleaned any of it since before I went into the hospital and it shows. My bathroom is especially embarrassing. It wouldn't be as bad if I was the only one using it, but I have a visiting nurse come into the house to give me my medication and she asks to use the bathroom sometimes....

Posted April 12th 2023 at 07:27 PM by Ennui. Comments 1
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I attempted suicide again. I have no lasting damage from it and earned myself another hospital stay instead. I was in the regular ER at my local hospital for like 6-7 hours before going to the Acute Behavioral Unit. It's not designed like a psych hospital and is a holding place until you go home or get admitted somewhere else. I had mt own room which was nice but I wasn't allowed plastic utensils and was only allowed finger foods. The one time they did let me use a spoon, I...

Posted March 18th 2023 at 03:49 AM by Ennui. Comments 2
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I don't know how I am doing right now. My therapist asked me if I needed to go to the hospital and I said no, but I don't know if I really should.

I'm still feeling suicidal and my brain kept on telling me to do it before Texas so I have an excuse not to go. I did get some good news surrounding Texas that made me want to go more. I think I might have fun if this one specific thing happens. I'm still not looking forward to the flight there ore back, but if the one thing I'm excited...

Posted February 17th 2023 at 03:45 AM by Ennui. Comments 1
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I've been in a spiral lately and it just won't stop.

I might lose my insurance by March 31st. I am on Medicaid but due to my income level and the Covid relief money being taken away, I will lose it. I don't really have money to pay for my own insurance though so I don't know how I am going to be able to continue to get healthcare, do therapy, see my medication prescriber, and get all my medications. It makes me feel hopeless.

I am also losing my job on June 30, which...
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