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  1. Enigmatic.
    June 3rd 2024 01:03 PM - permalink
    Enigmatic.
    Happy birthday, Dez!
  2. Arabesque- golfing girl.
    June 3rd 2024 11:53 AM - permalink
    Arabesque- golfing girl.
    Happy Birthday Dez Have a lovely day.
  3. Chai.
    May 29th 2024 05:37 AM - permalink
    Chai.
    Heyy! So sorry to hear that you are struggling. If there is any way I can help/ if you'd like to talk about it, please do reach out. I think I still have you on my social media accounts!
  4. Arabesque- golfing girl.
    May 23rd 2024 11:36 PM - permalink
    Arabesque- golfing girl.
    Thank you so much for your message. You are a lovely friend. I hope you are doing well.
  5. Astro04
    April 14th 2024 01:17 PM - permalink
    Astro04
    Thank you I will do my best!
  6. PSY
    April 11th 2024 06:58 PM - permalink
    PSY
    Thank you, Dez! =)
  7. NeuroBeautiful
    April 11th 2024 12:16 PM - permalink
    NeuroBeautiful
    Thank you ��
  8. Chai.
    April 5th 2024 05:55 AM - permalink
    Chai.
    Yaayy! After I sent you the message I started to wonder if you still remembered me OMG Yes! It has been way too long, a lot has changed! I am doing good!
  9. Chai.
    April 4th 2024 12:09 PM - permalink
    Chai.
    Hi!! Randomly popped back on here after years and you're one of the people I wanted to check in on! I hope you are doing great!
  10. Enigmatic.
    March 29th 2024 12:44 AM - permalink
    Enigmatic.
    Dezmaid, I'm just noticing that you have over twenty thousand posts!

    How the heck? Rob should give you some special kind of award and a new user title for that! My average post per day is 1.57 but we'll see how long that lasts! Plus, this account has only been active for a few months while yours have been around for fourteen years.

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    Dez
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    Connecticut, USA
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  • About
    About me
    Hey all! My name is Dez, and I am a 27 year old who just graduated with my Masters in Public Health. So I basically just entered the "real world" and have to be an "adult." Ew.

    On any given day if I'm not here you'll find me napping, sitting in therapy, or watching something on Netflix. I'm trying to do this thing called "finding a hobby," so feel free to pass along your favorite books and TV shows.

    I have an interest in sexual health, especially contraceptives, the prevention of sexually transmitted infections as well as HPV and the vaccine in particular. I stand with Planned Parenthood and similar reproductive health organizations. I also have an interest in vaccines.

    I'm still basically trying to figure everything out myself, but feel free to say hello. If I don't answer right away, rest assured that I will when I get a chance! :D

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    I became a LiveHelp Operator on December 1, 2011. On January 29, 2012 I changed primaries to HelpLINK Mentor. On April 23, 2012 I became a Self Expression Forum Mod. On October 8, 2012 I became an LGBT+ Forum Mod. On December 1, 2012 I became a Chat Moderator. On February 9, 2013 I became a HelpLINK Moderator. On July 13, 2013 I became a member of the Performance Committee. On August 17 2013, I became an Albums Moderator as well as a member of the Articles Team. On October 13, 2013, I became a Self Harm Forum Mod. On November 16, 2013, I became a member of the Social Networking Team. On December 23, 2013, I became a Social Groups Moderator. On December 23, 2013, I also became a member of the Videos Team. On January 25, 2014, I became a Blogs Moderator. On April 12th, 2014, I became a Project Advisor. On August 31, 2014 I became a member of the newly formed Volunteering Committee. On March 27, 2015 I became a Newsletter Editor. On August 1, 2015 I became part of the Disputes Committee. On August 17, 2015 I became a Forums and Community Officer. On April 30, 2022 I became a Community Team Leader.
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    Last updated 11/19/23
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    Like to help and be helped
    Relationship status
    What's that?
    Sexuality
    I'm here, I'm Queer
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    Education
    Master’s in Public Health
    Occupation
    Unemployed
    Politics
    Democrat.
    Religion
    Atheist
    Zodiac sign
    Gemini
  • Interests
    Hobbies
    I don't know anymore.
    Music
    Oh, various things.
    Movies
    The Day After Tomorrow, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Horton Hears a Who, Repo! The Genetic Opera, The Little Mermaid, Finding Nemo, Finding Dory... I don't watch many movies.
    Television
    House M.D., In Plain Sight, Nurse Jackie, Rizzoli & Isles, Hell's Kitchen, Once Upon A Time, Necessary Roughness, Chicago Fire, Justice League, Scrubs, Rick and Morty, Bojack Horseman, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Good Doctor, The Good Place, The Resident, 9-1-1
    Games
    Portal, Portal 2, The Sims 3 and 4, Plague, Rocket League, Golf With Your Friends, Magicka, then your classic board games.
    Books
    Anything that's by Jodi Picoult or talks about real life issues or Ellen Hopkins. Fiction books that talk about real world issues, like self harm.
    Sports
    I don't like sports.
    Heroes
    My Pepere (grandfather) and my cousin Sophia, as well as her two older sisters Alex and Gabby and their mother, Kristy. Also my niece Madison. :)
    Favorite quotes
    The world is round, so the place that may seem like the end, may also be only the beginning.
    Other interests
    Being a mermaid.
    Sleeping.
    Eating my sister's food.
    Zumba.
    Sloths.
    Guinea pigs.
    Sexual health and reproductive rights
    Vaccines
  • Signature
    Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
    Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
    Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
    'Cause you gotta survive

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Posted April 12th 2024 at 10:00 PM by Ennui. Comments 2
Posted in Uncategorized
I followed a journal prompt asking you to write a letter to your future self. I decided to write a letter to me five years from now. I kind of like how it came out so I am posting it here too. Here goes:

Dear Me 5 Years From Now,

I honestly didn't expect that you would live this long, so congratulations I guess. I hope you don't have any permanent damage from any more suicide attempts that happened between 4/12/24 and now. Maybe you're finally not feeling as suicidal...

Posted April 1st 2024 at 10:19 PM by Ennui. Comments 3
Posted in Uncategorized
I started writing this and then something happened and it deleted itself, so I guess I'll try to remember what I was going to say.

I was doing relatively well for a few weeks. I really was. I hadn't been self harming and had generally been feeling okay. But then it crashed again and the depression and anxiety are back with a vengeance.

This weekend I was very depressed. I spent a lot of Saturday isolating by myself and was in bed a lot. I went to bed around 7:30, 8:00...

Posted March 8th 2024 at 02:56 AM by Ennui. Comments 2
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I feel like shit.

I'm not feeling any better. I'm going to PHP/IOP every single day but it's all stuff I've heard from being there so many times and it's just not helping and nothing is helping and I don't feel any better.

I want to die still. I have a potential date range picked out if things go as planned, but maybe I'll feel better before then and I'll change my mind. There's always a chance, right? The visiting nurse took my suicide method away from me but I ordered...

Posted February 26th 2024 at 09:35 PM by Ennui. Comments 1
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2/15/24 - Today I attempted suicide. I wanted the anxiety that had been getting progressively worse throughout the month to stop. I had been making plans for a while but didn't have a specific date until I decided it would be today.
My friend found out and made me call 911. The fire department came first, then the ambulance and police. They questioned me and then I got in the ambulance where they took my vitals and have me fluids. We live close to the hospital so the ride only lasted like...

Posted December 27th 2023 at 03:27 AM by Ennui. Comments 1
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I'm feeling low again. The medication I was put on a few months back worked for maybe 2-3 months and then I felt low again. I was going to kill myself after I finished the partial hospitalization program/intensive outpatient program but the medication was doing its job and I had hope that maybe things would be all right. So I didn't do it. But as usual it didn't last.

I don't get out much aside from the gym and group therapy. My therapist wants me to volunteer to get out of the house...
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