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Suicidal (TW: Suicide, self harm, substances)

Posted September 8th 2022 at 08:29 PM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)
Updated September 9th 2022 at 12:08 AM by Wheek!

I got my suicide method of choice back from my parents. I told them I was ready to have it back and took it back from them. I am hanging on by a thread but I am trying to hold out until at least the date I picked. My therapist and APRN told me to give the suicide method back to my parents but I'm unwilling to do that.

I almost got myself hospitalized by admitting to my APRN how suicidal I am. She said she thinks it would be reasonable for me to go to the hospital and I said I don't...
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My job is ending earlier than expected. (TW: Suicide)

Posted September 2nd 2022 at 05:56 PM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

I thought my job was ending in December but it's really ending between November 15-17th. I thought I had more time.

I'm panicking because that means I'll have to apply for jobs and I'll never find one with this good of a boss and this much flexibility to make my own schedule, AND one where I make this good of money. My therapist said I'd be good for a part-time job but I'm going to have to go full-time if I want to make enough to pay the bills. I don't know if I'll be able to cope...
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Feeling dread (suicide and death/grieving trigger)

Posted July 22nd 2022 at 10:08 PM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)
Updated July 23rd 2022 at 12:46 AM by Wheek!

I am dreading the day that this job ends at the end of December and I have to work full time. I have so many doctor's appointments and mental health issues that I don't know how I'll cope without a job that is so flexible that I am able to fit everything in. My job gets overwhelming a lot but it is part time, and my therapist thinks I'd be good with a PART TIME job, but I'll have to look into full time to pay the bills. That's where it gets scary.

I dread losing Medicaid and having...
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Was in the hospital. (brief mention of suicide)

Posted July 10th 2022 at 07:45 PM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

I had been in pain with abdominal cramping for a few days that radiated to my back and the middle of my stomach, and it was getting progressively worse by the day. I'd be okay during the day but then at night I'd be in a lot of pain to the point it kept me up for at least two days straight.

I finally gave in and asked my dad to take me to the ER at about 10:30 on Thursday night. I waited in the lobby for a few hours but it wasn't horrible minus the fact I was in so much pain I couldn't...
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Invalidated. TW: Suicide, self harm, some language

Posted June 10th 2022 at 12:45 AM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

My prescriber says she doesn't think I'm suicidal but instead thinks that I "just want the shit to stop." That's even though I have a plan in my head, because I don't have intent. But some days I feel close to it again, because I really have that plan in my head and worry that I am going to use the things I did last time and try again. She also doesn't believe I'm suicidal because I pretty much got help right after the attempt last time, because I was like "oh crap." She thinks...
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Disability 2 (mentions of suicide/self harm)

Posted May 25th 2022 at 07:44 PM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

I had my meeting today to try and get on disability and basically I make too much money right now to even qualify for disability. They immediately told me that my denial letter will be coming in the mail. The point of going on disability would have been so I can leave my job so I can have income without wanting to have a breakdown every time I go to work. I mean, I tried to kill myself and a lot of it was triggered by work. But I make too much money to be disabled. It'd almost be easier to quit...
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Disability (Mention of suicide)

Posted May 14th 2022 at 01:08 AM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

I am more stable now than when I was in the hospital which is good, but I still feel sad and anxious a lot of the time. My prescriber mentioned the words "treatment resistant" to me and sometimes I worry that that's the case. I have been in therapy off and on since the 8th grade and have been on medication for around 6 or 7 years and am still miserable a lot of the time.

I have a post up about work and the possibility of applying for disability. Even if I do end up applying...
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Psych hospital (TW: Suicide)

Posted April 28th 2022 at 12:12 AM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

I was in the hospital starting on the 12th after a suicide attempt. I had felt hopeless and impulsive and wanted it to stop. I never thought I would actually go through with an attempt but I guess life's full of surprises. I ended up Ubering to the hospital and luckily I got there before getting pretty sick. I was already starting to feel it before getting in the Uber so I got lucky. In the ER I was taken right back and they talked to me but I don't remember the conversation.
I had to wait...
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Flippin' insurance.

Posted February 22nd 2022 at 08:08 PM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

After April 30, I will likely be losing Medicaid due to an increase in oncome and will have to find some other insurance through our marketplace.

Looking at them, it seems like all of them are way out of my price range and wouldn't be something worth getting anyway! Some of the deductibles are in the absolute THOUSANDS, and most of them don't cover all of my providers so I'd have to either pay out of pocket or stop seeing them entirely.

You'd think an increase in income...
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Working full time worries

Posted February 12th 2022 at 07:10 PM by Wheek! (Rantings of a Mermaid Princess)

I am going full time on March 7th. That's when I go to HR to fill out the paperwork.

I am worried about working 7-8 hours a day, but I think I'll be able to do it. However, contact tracing is slowing down right now so I am not sure how I will GET 7-8 hours a day. I will be taking their insurance, so I need to make sure I get all of the hours I can so I can actually PAY for that insurance. If I get fewer hours than what I was guaranteed, all my paycheck will go to insurance and I will...
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