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Hey Lyd,

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It must be super hard to have these memories resurface because of what you saw on this chat show.

I've seen from your other posts that you go to some type of group regularly (I forgot the name, sorry!) and I'm wondering if you can pull a staff member aside and talk to them about how you are feeling. I'm not saying you have to go into depth about everything that has happened to you, but maybe you can say that you saw a segment on the TV and it brought back some old childhood memories for you and you want some help coping.

Maybe you can write a letter to your child self reminding them that this isn't your fault and you didn't deserve it. You can tell your child self all of the things you wish you heard growing up, such as you are a good, strong person.

It's completely natural to feel angry towards people who didn't listen or help when you were a child. It can be extremely hurtful when you rely on people and they fail you. Would it be possible for you to talk through your feelings with some of these people now? If not, perhaps you could write about your feelings towards them in a journal or letter that you don't send. It's also important to keep in mind that just because people didn't listen then doesn't mean people won't listen now. Finding people that will love and support you through this can make a world of difference.

I wouldn't look up the celebrity's personal phone number or personal address, but maybe there's a section where you can submit fan mail. Only do this if you are comfortable with the fact that he may not respond to you. You can say that you saw his interview on TV and it brought back some old memories for you. You can say that it was inspiring that he talked about this openly and you can relate to it, and ask him how he got through it.

I hope all goes well.

Take care,
Dez