[Face Up.]

Hey,

I don't think you're pathetic at all! I don't think people can necessarily always help what they are into, but it's what you do with it that matters. For example, you may have this kink but you're likely not going to be actively seeking out Nazis to have relations with. Remember that you're not a bad person for feeling this way.

Do you think you can start out by limiting the kind of content you see? There are apps where you may be able to block certain websites based on keywords, so you can enter something like "Nazi" and have it be blocked for you. You can also block certain types of materials in general, such as things that are pornographic.

Maybe you can also try branching out what you draw so you're not stuck solely on SS officers. For example, maybe you can look up tutorials on YouTube for other types of people, animals, nature, other types of fanart, etc, and practice those types of drawings. You got really good at drawing SS officers, so I bet you're capable of getting really good at drawing some other subjects too!

I think everyone has a "type" with dating. You said you don't think it's necessarily because of your kink, and you could be right that they're not related. Just watch the type of personalities you're dating (for example I wouldn't date someone who DID have Nazi ideals).

I hope this helps, at least a little.

Take care,
Dez