[prettyface2341]

In the winter of 07-08 I lost a lot of people that meant a lot to me... On thanksgiving day, My aunt, who lived in Ohio, was driving to WI to come and see my uncle who had Leukemia, to basically say her goodbyes, when she got into a one car car accident... She had never been religious, but in her last moments of life she sat in her car with the witnesses around her and held their hands and prayed... She didn't make it... That night at 2:38 AM, another aunt of mine and my cousin had been playing monopoly.. and we were just laying down to watch a movie when the phone rang. My immediate reaction was who the fuck is calling?! and i looked at the caller ID to see my dad's cell phone number... Since he was deer hunting, I thought the worse and assumed he'd been shot or something on those lines... I answered it.. and he sounded awful, like he'd been crying... he told me to give the phone to my mother and for me to get off the phone, but i couldnt get off.. My mom answered and 9 simple words brought me to my knees.. ''Debbie's dead- she was killed in a car accident.'' I hung up.. and just balled. And I couldn't stop. the rest of my family asked me what was going on.. and I told them about it.. things seemed to get better.. In fact, I learned a lot more about my aunt than I knew when she was alive.. but then on February 18th, as i was getting ready for school.. my dad knocked at my door and told me to open it... I did and he told me my uncle Dennis had died that night of his leukemia... I basically slammed the door, locked it, and slid to the floor and just started crying... my dad made me open it up again and he just hugged me.. which was sorta awkward.... lol... and I don't really know why I felt the need to post about all of this... it just seems like no one ever wants to talk about it anymore, because it was so long ago now... and when i do bring it up i'm just ''being depressing'' and need to ''move on''.. well i can and cant... I've moved on in the matter that I understand that i cant change things anymore.. and whats done is done.. but I still find myself crying about their deaths at least once a month.

I feel like the only one who still cares... which i know isnt true... but I really just need someone who can relate.. you know?