[ForeverAutumn*]

At my worst point, I think I was cutting just to cut. I was so used to feeling hurt and anger and sadness, that I wasn't comfortable being happy or okay. I didn't feel like I had a right to feel okay. The times I felt okay were the times I cut most, because I felt like I needed to bring my mood down and it sort of.. grounded me, I guess you could say.

Anyway, the point is that SH is an addiction. You're used to hurting yourself, either as a coping method or distraction method, or for whatever reason you SH. Like Ellie said, keep questioning yourself.. maybe there's a reason why urges come when you feel happy, something that triggers you or an overwhelming feeling - anything. If you can figure out the problem or the trigger, figuring out a solution will be easier.

Best of luck and take care.