I used to be like that too. and it was hard...if you set your mind to it you can do it. just have to fight as hard as you can. Imagine this like a vacation that you would. Once you get to beating this the closer you get to enjoying this vacation. that's how i looked at it. imagine how much better you would feel. How many people would be so proud of you including me! I have faith in you. You can do this.
If you need to talk you can always
pm me.