Thank you everyone for your help
I had to reschedule my consultation for next tuesday... but I did get to see my little one yesterday and hear his/her heartbeat
Anyway, I talked to by b/f afterwards and he told me that he would really like it if I went to the consultation, but If I can't go thru with having it done he'll support be no matter what. I told him I'll go but most likely I'm going to keep it. So, everything seems to be working out... as well as it could be anyway