[CrystalJade]

I can't stand the thought of going through what I did as a kid. I only have my dad now and he's already disappointed in me for getting wasted.. I don't want this to be another thing to be upset about. He has a hard time as it is. My best friend is probably in tons of trouble so I can't talk to her about it and my dad can't really afford a psychologist.
That's partly why I'm here.. I just talked to him about me seeing one. I was holding back the tears the whole time and when he left I started crying a lot. It also hurts to move. If I'm pregnant I'm keeping it... I can't go to a doctor for this, my dad would ask questions why I needed to go. If I'm pregnant then I'll tell him but not until then.

I feel like I'm a huge disappointment.