|
Re: Screaming thread.
Just found out Brittany tried to call me on Skype this midnight while I was asleep.
KUT! *Bangs head in table* |
Re: Screaming thread.
I hate my life. Apparently you can't get the help you want and need and also graduate on time. Withdraw again and take a semester off. Really, that's the best you can do? I forgot to ask you about that and I probably will eventually, but social phobic+that is NOT a good idea.
School has officially gone from dream to FUCKING NIGHTMARE! |
Re: Screaming thread.
Wow. Several people called me a burden or the equivalent yesterday. Thanks for showing me your true colors, I appreciate that. I never knew you thought that. But now that I know, don't expect any favors from me.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Ugh, God, I can just see myself driving everyone away eventually. Why do people stay, when all I can do is hurt them? I try to be a good person, but I'm not able. I'm useless.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Dream ending, world collapsing, walls closing in, can't stop crying, can't breathe, can't move, can't let this happen, soul crushed, life over, danger. HELP ME!!!
These little episodes are SO FUN! I'll wait at least a little while and meet with her and probably him again to see where I stand before making the decision that I don't want to make or having the absolute worst-case scenario decision made for me. |
Re: Screaming thread.
You always said you were here for me.
You always said you would come over if I needed you. But you didn't have a car. But you couldn't drive because you weren't sober. But he would want to come too. But you were in class. But you had to get this homework done tonight. But But But You have a car now. I know you were sober when I texted. He isn't a problem anymore. You don't have classes. You have almost zero responsibility. So what's your excuse tonight? |
Re: Screaming thread.
Stop giving me your love, people. I don't deserve it. I'm useless.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
This is not the time for me to break down; this can't happen right now.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
The anxiety attacks can stop now. They're really annoying..
|
Re: Screaming thread.
I feel so fucking dead today. The interior of my mind is like a morgue.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
If I could stop crying for five fucking seconds.. :'( If I could think of her without bursting into tears, that'd be great.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
TAYLOR YOU UNTALENTED LITTLE SHIT, WHY ARE YOU EVEN BOTHERING TO TRY OUT FOR THIS SOLO?! YOU HAD MICROSCOPIC CHANCES OF GETTING IT BUT NOW YOU'VE FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT UNTIL THE DAY BEFORE AND YOU DON'T KNOW IT AND ITS IN FREAKING LATIN YOU FUCKING IDIOT....
...sorry... |
Re: Screaming thread.
Everything I do feels wrong. I always feel like I'm doing someone wrong.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Are you fucking serious? Go ahead, let my life fall apart. Why don't you just take everything away from me while you can, damn it? If I lose one more living thing or person in my life I'm going to go crazy. Oh, I'm already crazy. Never mind.
I'm trying to make myself breathe.. I have to breathe. To calm down, somehow. I hate it when I shake. This feeling of absolute helplessness. I have so many people who offer help, but there's so many people that I'm afraid to turn to. So I can't. |
Re: Screaming thread.
Couldn't find the damn building to save my life and even if I had, I can't get to it because there's fucking CONSTRUCTION EVERYWHERE!! Can I please just do my fucking assignment without having to risk getting hit by a car because you fenced off all the sidewalks?!
|
Re: Screaming thread.
I really fucking hate this. So, so, so, so much.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Keep quiet, you said. I'm connecting more pieces..I'm putting them together ever so slowly. And if I could stop shaking for a damned moment. If I could stop being in so much pain.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
I just can't deal with this bullshit anymore, Why am i such a goddamn dissapointment and a burden to everyone.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
....I fucking go to shit therapy today and its like the hardest fucking session I've ever had and now, hours later, my mom has the nerves to be pissed at me and make shit out of me because I said to my therapist that "my mom gets on my nerves a lot, things have been hard at home with my parents"
SHE HAS THE FUCKING NERVE NOW TO CALL ME OUT AND SAY THAT IM AN UNGRATEFUL BITCH AND NOW SHE COMES IN HERE, TRIES TO FUCKING APOLOGIZE, AND ENDS UP YELLING AT ME BECAUSE ITS OUR FAULT SHE WAS WITH KRAIG ITS OUR FUCKING FAULT AND WE'RE THE REASON SHE LEFT AND THAT MAKES ME THE BITCH. THAT MAKES ME THE MONSTER FOR SAYING THAT SHE HURTS ME THE WAY SHE FUCKING DOES ...she comes in here... and says... and I fucking quote "if I had been getting what I deserve here at home I wouldn't have been with Kraig. Its not like I even had sex with him" ...Right And that fucking justifies it That poor fucking angel I'll make her an apology pie IM SO SORRY IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU fucking shit just... fuck everything FUCK. HER. SERIOUSLY I'M JUST... I'M LIKE.... I'M SUFFOCATING ON WHAT SHE JUST FUCKING PULLED. I JUST...I wanna fucking leave. ....god sorry, I didn't mean to lose it or swear that much..... |
Re: Screaming thread.
I have no idea if I like you or if I just find you annoying.
First you steal Kez. Then Courtney whenever she's around us. You don't even understand that Courtney is my only friend who actually knows everything . . . when you steal her that just leaves me alone, with no one. Or worse - flippin third wheeling! Now Maddie. I always thought you didn't really like her. Why suddenly has that changed? Arghhhh The four of us are a group! Why do you steal my 3 friends and forget about me? What is it about me that you don't like? Honestly if I make any more friends then you'll just steal them I know it. Hello life of friendless loser |
Re: Screaming thread.
The dissociation won't stop. I feel like I have no one to turn to but myself.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
My mom's cousin loses her son in an accident the day before my cousin and his wife have their daughter. And I thought needing a new laptop was the worst thing that could happen.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Please hold on. Stay with us. Don't die. You can't. Please. I... Just... I need a miracle. Like now.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Thanks for ruining my happiness. What a short lived feeling of accomplishment. I really don't deserve to be happy, do I? All I do is open my fat mouth and piss you off. Love you too. Now you're asleep and you didn't say a single word to me. Thanks. You're awesome.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
You're getting on my last fucking nerve. Do you treat everyone like that?
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Sometimes I ask myself: 'Why bother?'
But then I realize you're everything I ever wanted. Please come back into my life. |
Re: Screaming thread.
Stop yelling. You're not helping anything.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
i just really hate you and wish i could just fucking move out because i'll find a place to live faster than you ever have. I won't be fucking homeless
|
Re: Screaming thread.
No one really likes me but I really don't like them? The guy that does like me won't fucking admit it yet fucks me around so much I should start charging for it. I sleep around because I'm so fucking lonely. My "best friend" I fucking hate, a deluded little girl that is staying with a guy who just wants her fucking pussy and is embarrassed to admit he likes her because she's a fucking riot. My course is too hard and I'm drowning in it 6 weeks in and have an exam tomorrow, fuck my life.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Okay, so apparently we need cars with mandatory seat belts that don't run if the driver is intoxicated or distracted because we can't make these decisions for ourselves! Rest in Peace T.
Today is bad and I don't even know why. This is NOT the day for this class (not that there ever is a good day for it). I can still feel my life's dream slipping away. Part of me wants to drop out, runaway screaming, and never come back. The rational part knows that if I can pull it off and stick it out, I can have the type of job I've always wanted. My life is a mess, but at least I have a life to make a mess of. |
Re: Screaming thread.
I'm actually happy! But I'm screaming because I still want to cut, despite my happiness.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
You gave up on me. Why? Did I treat you badly? Did I hurt you? Am I not what you wanted? Am I not good enough? Did I hug you too tightly? Did I hug you less than I should have? Tell me why.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
I'm never going to drag myself out of this hole. Never. Half of me cares so much and half of me cares not enough and it depends on the time of day which side wins.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
i told my friend that we'd get through this together but i don't think i can even make it another day..
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Thanks for promising that you would come back into my life, and then break the promise.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
Today marks one year.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
SERIOUSLY??!! How hard is it to find a FUCKING BUILDING?? I'll ask someone else for directions and then ask the instructor because this is absolutely ridiculous! I only need to find it once, but I need to do it soon.
All I want this weekend is a working dryer and a chance to meet and hold the new baby. I really don't think that's too much to ask |
Re: Screaming thread.
I want to frikking punch you in the face. Thank you for being a completely selfish and stupid.
Frkking hell. Wait make that kick you in the balls. Do you not know how much I care? I will kill you next time I see you. Slowly and painfully. btw today was actually a happy day. |
Re: Screaming thread.
Please stop acting like an idiot. You ask too many damn questions, you chew your food too loudly, you overreact to everything, and you totally stress me out. I hate living with you.
|
Re: Screaming thread.
If your only response was to call me ungrateful then ignore me, then why the fuck bother asking?
:mad: |
| All times are GMT. The time now is 06:57 AM. |
Powered by vBulletin®.
Copyright ©2000-2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.
Search engine optimization by vBSEO.
All material copyright ©1998-2025, TeenHelp.
Terms | Legal | Privacy | Conduct | Complaints | Mobile