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Ill be short... Fuck you all except Tay. Thank you. Goodbye...

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I'm such a failure.
April Fool.
Fuck you life. I fucking hate you.
WHY do I ruin everything good?
I fucking miss him like FUCK, and just because i'm so broken and sensitive.
Well Sven i'm sorry ok, I never deserved your friendship and never will.
I never planned on hurting you. I don't understand how you can love me.......
there is NOTHING good about me :,(
God made me, so the haters have something to laugh at.
Well at least I make some people happy.

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Im so destroyed, i dont even read others posts...
I miss her so so much... There isnt a day that goes by without me not remembering her, and when she said: We shouldnt talk that much no more... That pierces through my heart every day, every time, i remember those words...
And i love her so so much... My snowflake...
I want to talk to her, and i dont know what to say... I never deserved her... Im such an idiot for bonding... I miss her optimism, her words, her x\'s and o\'s, when we pretend those were kisses and hugs... Every day, that hole, that crack in my heart goes bigger and bigger... I knew she never really cared, but I still cant stop caring. All of my friends say that i should forget her and i cant. I know she has her flaws but all of those flaws look like nothing... I just want to talk to her... She was the first person i prayed for when she was sick... I never prayed for anyone, except her. I said: God, give her strength, make her feel better...
I loved how she was so delicate and sensitive, i had to take extra care for her... My little snowflake...
I ruined everything, i should have waited to tell her i love her, and i had so much shit that day, and i let her out on her, and i feel so so so sorry... I wanted to kill myself, i would have so many lines on my i couldnt recognise myself in the mirror, but Taylor saved me. Thank you for that, for being my support, for sacrificiting so much to make me feel better... Im forever in your debt...
And to you my snowflake... I never asked for a partner relationship. I asked for only friendship, and i lost that too, not because of you, but because of me, because I scared you, the last person i wanted to scare... And every day, how time goes by, i count my future lines when i relapse... Every day without you ads a few lines... I miss you so so so so much...

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I\'m scared to near paralytic levels by the thought of growing up. Physically, not responsibly. I\'m scared of becoming a man, because I\'m not one. Someone should SERIOUSLY tell my body that. Testosterone ravaged it once, and now I\'m worried it\'ll ravage it again. Why couldn\'t I have known sooner? Why couldn\'t anyone have known? The signs were there, but everyone, myself included, completely missed them. It\'s worse because I feel like I\'m not making any progress, and I\'m worried that one day I\'m going to wake up and find it\'s too late.

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My disease is very bad the last few days........
keep having attacks.........:,(
I miss him, i miss my friend :,(

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I deserve to die ;(

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why can\'t you be there for me....you\'re supposed to be this all around amazing guy, everybody fucking adores you, i\'m supposed to be your \'best\' friend but you refuse to listen to me....why can\'t you be more like him...he\'s there, he listens, he doesn\'t judge me....and we\'re not even that close. if somebody i\'m not close to can be here for me, why can\'t my best friend... why are you such an asshole?!

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Oh ffs.....
well i\'m really fucking upset now.
Fuck this.
Am I that much of a fucking disgrace?

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I hate myself even more now,
Didn\'t even know that was possible.........:,(

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You didn\'t have to cut me off...
now i\'m leaving TH.

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Oh my.... Okay here\'s some common sense, it sounds like you need it. When your mother told me to leave you and your family alone.. she meant she doesn\'t want you doing anything with me... so why do you still bother me? What? Are we at war now? You hav eto get back at me for getting you grounded? It\'s not my fault your mom doesn\'t like me because I have a mental disorder... But when you make comments like "I wouldn\'t care if you fell of the face of the Earth and died!" I\'m sorry, but comments like that make me want to die.... I don\'t sugar coat things sweeite.. No, I give people the real deal.. you make me want to kill myself. I\'m not saying to make you pissed, I\'m saying it to make you realize what you\'re doing is wrong! But now that I\'ve left you alone... please leave me alone! Stop with the dirty looks, the talking shit aout me, talking to my family, and I don\'t want your friends messaging me on FB, stop texting me, or whatever you so please to do. Don\'t you get? You\'ve already broke everything that I am. Congrats.. you won! Now just leave me alone! I can\'t take this anymore! :\'(

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Stop acting like you are my bestfriend. You don\'t even pay attention to me outside of school, so why should I even talk to you?

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It only takes one look at the news to remember that I could have very real reasons to fear for my life if I transition. And that terrifies me in ways you can\'t begin to imagine.

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You call me jealous, but I\'m not. There\'s a difference between jealousy and actually being excluded from everything you all are doing. RX: you always say "If you need to talk, I\'m here for you," as if you want to know all my secrets. And yet you don\'t tell me a thing. And we\'ve been friends longer than you and RP yet you both go out of your way to have private conversations right in front of me. And RP: Don\'t you dare call me jealous! You watch as your friend/my \'friend\' says "Go away Mads, no one wants you here," like it doesn\'t hurt. Well news flash: it does. It\'s not a joke anymore. In fact, it was NEVER a joke.
Some friends you guys are.

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mum, you found out what i do and you asked me to write a letter to explain why i feel the way i do. please stop pestering me and hurrying me for this letter and just try to understand that it\'s difficult to put my feelings into words and that it\'s hard to think about some of the things that have happened.

dad, i\'m very different to you and i need you to accept it! stop trying to make me a miniture version of you! you\'re making it so difficult for me to make you proud and it\'s because i\'m the genius you wanted me to be! leave me alone and don;t speak to me!

college people, stop judging me. i\'m no different to you on the inside, i have feelings too. stop making assumptions, thinking you know me when you don\'t.

arghhh :(

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I hate when you yell at me when I didn\'t even do anything wrong.

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I\'m just so honestly confused about myself, I don\'t know what to do. Fuuuuck.

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Just stop treating me like this. I can\'t take much more...

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Screaming thread? Ok...
*scream*

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