Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

... i want you to hold me ...








tight.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I'm falling for you....

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I wish I could be with you right now... I want you.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

... i puked. and i don't regret it.

not one bit.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I threw up after I ate. On purpose. And it felt really good...

But now I can't seem to stop crying, and it feels like nobody at all really seems to care.

And when I talk, I feel invisible, so it makes me feel worse, and I feel worse about myself...and want to eat even less.

:'( Someone hear my cry...

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I masturbate several times a day.

I've given myself head before.

I like to toy my ass every once in awhile.

I pee in the shower.

I've never had a job and I'm scared of the real world.

I've never had a gf or have done anything remotely sexual with another person.

I have almost no confidence in myself and sometimes I think I have depression.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Don't go ;( Please...

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I don't think anything matters.
--
That heavy feeling is descending again...

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I'm fucking this guy just to get over you...
But I miss you more than anything and will be pretending that he is you...
You make me feel small and pathetic...
Stop texting me and delete my number...
But don't forget me...please...

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I havent thrown up or self harmed in about three days
but already i feel ugly,fat and out of control,i cant make this voice in my head stop,i might give in tonight,i love this feeling i get from it so much.no matter how wrong it seems.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I'm falling for you and it hurts.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

My wee secret: I actually have no idea what's going on. I'd say/think that I were regressing emotionally, socially, mentally, and intellectually except I haven't changed in years. So, not regression but stagnation. Which is at least as bad.
I feel like I'm less and less able to gather my mind together and function, but maybe that's because it's the same as ever and I'm becoming increasingly aware of how much more capable I ought to be. It feels like regression when really nothing has changed at all, because the expectation of improvement- of forward motion- is there but everything is standing still. Make sense?
Probably not.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

For five minutes i need you to hold me,hug me, and kiss me again.so i can feel like for once in my life i have something solid to hold on to,instead of this constant feeling of slipping and sliding in my mind from reality.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Gosh, on Saturday, standing next to you during the awards ceremony for Band, it was the best, being that close to you, I had to control every movement so I wouldn't end up like Bella, hyperventilating, my heart beating like crazy, it sent to most amazing feeling through me, I wonder if you know this. I like you so much, will you ever realize this? Am I really so different that I can be only thought of as a friend, only a sister type like?

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

3 months, I won't let you stop this from happening.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

i lost the game.





hahah.
sorry (: !

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I ruined my five days of being self harm free,while i regret it,I loved every minute of it
Im losing my will to live

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Whenever I have something to drink my pinky sticks out unless I consciously resist it - which I do most of the time. :p

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I'm trying to be strong for her, I'm trying, I promise I am.
But I'm falling apart.
I love her so much... I'm so scared.
I love her.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Now...I see the same awkward, shy girl you see and I hate it. You made me see the bad things because that's what you see in me..

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I still regret doing THAT.

I wish I could take back things I said to you, I know it's too late, but I'm sorry too.

I wish I could tell everyone why I do these things..

I still think about him every day.. and it still makes me feel sick

I worry about the future.. if I even have one..

I cant ever explain to anyone about the medication..

I O'd last night.. I dont regret it.. I regret it not being enough..

I was the one who broke the mirror..

He's back..He never left.. but he's back in control.. and Im scared..

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I wish I had a real reason to be so depressed.

Everyday you ask the same question and everyday I'm lying.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I am completely and thoroughly Terrified beyond all rationality.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

i have a hickey that i've been hiding and secretly like that its there because i feel like he marked me as his :)
i'm glad they're not friends anymore.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I feel like I can't handle you guys anymore. All I ever to is give, give, give, and I never get anything back. You don't care. If you did you would stop lying. If you did you wouldn't be so mean. If you did you would open up. If you did you would actually say something.

I'm giving up on you. I'm sorry <3

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

I'm not scared of dying, I just CAN'T leave her.
I LOVE HER.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
 

Re: Dirty Little Secrets.