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I don't want to be in a realtionship for years from now I'm tired of waiting for mr. prince or princess charming to come along find me

I wish that I had a friend who was going through the exact thing that I'm going through because it breaks my heart to know that off of the internet I am alone when it comes to me being transgender at my school. Even though their is one friend talking to her about it too much make me think that she'll get annoyed with me even though she's totally cool about it right now.

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I touched my best friend up under the table at the pub the other day. He has a girlfriend. I want to sleep with him, but I don't want to ruin his relationship.

I haven't stopped drinking or cutting myself like I said I had.

I want to be anorexic. I never want to eat again. I've lost 10% of my body weight so far this year and I'm not planning on stopping until they send me to hospital. I've been using laxatives&making myself vomit.

I want people to worry about me.

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He tells me we're best friends, and I always jokingly deny it.
The truth is though, I'm not joking.
We can't be. Not after everything. It's just not sincere.

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I have to agree with Cheyenne on hers.

I really don't love myself as much as I say I do. I reality, I hate myself.

I can't see myself ever truly being happy. Everytime I try, I fail. I have the magical ability to ruin everything good in my life.

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If I could wake up at 2am, or still be awake cause of my insomnia and be able to make as much noise as I feel neccesary or get something to eat or just not be confined to one room, my life would feel atleast 50% happier.

Oh, to *day*dream... (cause I sure as hell ain't dreamin' at night...)

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My 11 year old cousin watched Katy Perry's 'Firework' music video the other day...

She told my dad the following morning that she got grossed out when the two guys kissed. I'm horrified to think that between her religious school, parents, and society.. She won't accept me one day... I know she loves me now, but will she in 5-7 years when she finds out the real me?

Callie, I'm sorry in advance for being some kind of monster like everyone depicts "our kind" to be. I love you, and I always will. You knowing the truth doesn't change me, or how much I love you.

Innocence is a beautifully awful thing.

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I cried at the end of the movie when Rommel died.

I salute you and your comrades in arms!

I am sick of not being able to tell my best friend that I love her with all my heart. :'(

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I think my boyfriends gay.

You really scared me.

Its complicated, and I can't tell you why I do somethings. Just know its for the best.

I'm sorry I blew you off at the last minute. But my best friend told me he was thinking of killing himself and I needed to talk to him.

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Why does he feel the need to control me?
She is trying to control us.
He doesn't love me.
I wish I was skinnyer.
I wish I still lived with my parents. At least I'd still have a life.

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I hate you for what youve done, youre immature, it really is that simple. I won't let you see what you've done to me

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I have a crush on my bio teacher heh .

I hate what I've become

I can't stand me

I hate my brother (He's hell)

I am not a good friend

I am a piece of fat shit!!!!!!

I'm a faliure at life

I hate me..

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"Learning that just cause they call themselves friends doesn't mean they'll call."

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I Wish she'd stop thinking everything i write is about her because it actully isn't. Stop trying to flatter yourself. I have a lot better things to do than to talk about you, stop trying to cause trouble and playing fucking innocent.


your boyfriend flirted with me two new years eve ago, and you still beleive his lies.

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Note to self:
You're never going to be the person you wish you were.

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Not the dirtiest of secrets, but:

--I want to be a person again. Not a wallowing, pathetic, non-thinking, so-depressive-I-can't-____, regressive failure.

--I am failing English. (I won't mention that I got 800s on the reading and writing sections of the SAT- I need to let go of that)

--I felt happy today for the first time in months. That's only a secret because I've no friends to tell.

--I cut (not even- scratch?) and then wear short sleeves (well, after a few days, once the initial redness fades) or am careless with my sleeves. I don't want attention from my parents- I want a few specific people at school (mostly teachers) to know that I am not well and this is not my natural state and the corollary to all of this is that if I WERE a person I'd be different and maybe you'd like me. I also just want to communicate with the universe and if body modification is the way I like best to do so (or the only way I feel like I can do so at this moment in my life), then this is what I'm doing. I don't feel bad about it. It doesn't feel immature. It's not positive, but it's at least neutral. (And I'm sure no one has noticed the scratches, anyway).

--I forget. But I've been remembering my childhood more over the past 24 hours (because reading old report cards made certain memories flood to my consciousness) and I'm glad about that.

--I really need to stop reading reviews about music (and books) before I decide what to get. For a mature, real person, it's a sensible part of the process of getting stuff. But I don't have enough of a sense of what I like so I do the absurd thing: I try to determine whether or not I should like certain things. This isn't fuckery I will indulge.

--I'm going to try to be okay with how bad I am at life, and how unoriginal I'm doomed to seem (and be), and how unintelligent I've been so far. Trying is important and I will never try if I remain consumed by what a waste of resources I am (so far). Just because I've failed whenever I tried to improve in the past doesn't mean it'll happen again. It doesn't. History actually never repeats itself; don't decontextualize. It's different this time.

--If I accomplish nothing for the rest of the school year except (passing English and) feeling like he and I are friends or could be friends, I'll feel successful. If I, at any point, make his life any easier or contribute to his happiness in any small way, it'll have been worth it. And by "it" I mean everything I've done in the past two years. (Now... if only I knew how to approach this idea...)

Oh my Spring, let's submit the post before it grows again.

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I withdrew from college because I was afraid that my parents were wasting money sending me there.

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I know my best friend self harms and has an eating disorder. Yet I do nothing to help her. And...I think I'm falling for her.... help me ;(

My bulimia is my own fault. I started off pro-ana...now I wish I could turn back the clock and not buy the magazine that started it all...

I only started self harming after I found out my friend did.

I do my own tattoo's and peircings...and hope something will go so wrong that I will die.

I tried drowning myself last year...

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I always wished I could be one of those girls, who would meet someone, and just like them, for ages, and they'd be all I thought about. I used to be jealous of the girls who found someone to like, even if they didn't like them back. I was jealous.
So guess what happened?
I got my wish. There's a guy. I like him.

I think he knows. He doesn't like me back. Now I think everythings ruined and I've made it all weird. I'm one of those girls I used to wish I was. I'm f***ing stupid.

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I don't like talking.
I'll tell my secrets one day, I hope.

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Well this sounds fun:

-I\'m not just attracted to girls, and only one other person knows.

-I go out of my way to help people so that I can feel like I have some worth.

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x I have the hugest crush on my best friend...who is also a girl, but straight :/
x Criminal Minds is my largest obsession.
x I think it was so hard for me to decide what to do with my life, because I always thought I\'d end up taking my own life years ago.
x I haven\'t self-harmed since the 10th of March, but I want to break the twenty day streak so much.
x I\'m so scared to get treatment because I don\'t want to be diagnosed with all the things I\'m pretty sure I have.

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"If you never try, you\'ll never know just what you\'re worth." I\'m afraid to know...

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