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im scared ur only pretending to be my friends, and your laughing at me behind my back

x

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I wish I'd never met him. He's not making things easier, and he lives too far away to ever have a real relationship. He just doesn't get it...

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Je voudrais être assez bon pour vous

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This site does a hell of a lot more bad for me than it does good...

...maybe thet's why I keep coming back.

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You kind of make me hate myself, doubt myself, question myself and wonder if I'm good enough. :/

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i often wonder if i've done something to deserve this. like this is life's way of punishing me and saying.. "fuck you.. haha.."

idk.

but i'm not done living yet. so heres me saying.. "fuck you.."

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You were my first kiss. My first night not alone. The first time I felt like that. Your scent, your eyes. I want every part of you.

why do you have a 2.5 year girl friend? why did you do it if you didn't like me more than a friend? why can't I be her?

yeah, I'm sure you told her and that she didn't get upset at all. liar.

I'm trying to be mad at you, but right now all I want to be is back in your arms.
fuck love. I just want someone for me. I'm sick of being a third wheel

yet I can't say no to you...you are my best self destructive habit.
one day this is going to pay off
when you guys are over

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I sometimes really wish I were friends with the popular girls again.
I used to want people to think I'm smart. Now I want them to think I'm dumb.
I hate it when people think I'm really smart or a really good person.
I wish I could tell my friends some of my secerets, but they won't listen...

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Its CAMH's day.
Doomsday.
Goodbye.
The day i die.

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I love my best friend...but she is contantly sleeping with so many different guys. I dont have any respect for her anymore.
I want to shake her and make her see herself as I see her. Maybe then she'll change.

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I fantasize about sex with my significant other so much that I am beginning to dream about it... the problem is, we've been going only 3 months. I don't want to take it to that level to early on... and yet I do! SO MUCH!

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Umm..i'm confused... about somethng i should'nt even be thinking about..

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I know what your trying to do,and it won't work.

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I pretend to be strong in front of you all, but underneath I'm broken.
I broke a long time ago.
I tried to kill myself.
and I wish I'd succeeded.

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I am so deeply enthralled with you most when you're not around... when we're not talking, when you're angry with me, when I miss you.

But then you come back and I feel indifferent.

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Im Bi And I Loved This Guy, He Dies And I Felt So ALone, I fell In Love With A Girl And Even Though We Have Been Split Up For A Year I Can't Get Either Of Them Out Of My Mind. I Feel Like Im Insulting His Memory And Cheating On Him But Im Also Confused About What I Feel For Her

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- When I was twelve I wrote that I wanted to attempt suicide, but I didn't want to actually die, I just wanted people to know how I felt. Life does have a way of giving us exactly what we want sometimes.

- I wish my parents had sent me to that mental institution. I've never been to one and I'm curious. Besides, it would've been better than sitting at home for two months wondering if I was crazy.

- I used to plagiarize essays in 7th grade back before I knew how to write. My dad would tell me what to write and I'd type it. I wanted to apologize to my teacher, but now she's retired.

- When I play DDR with my friends, I deliberately pretend to suck so they don't feel bad.

- A part of me doesn't want to get better. Because if I'm happy, that means what my parents did to me was right.

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It doesn't hurt to eat with braces THAT much... I just don't want you to think that I'm spiraling back into an ED (which I think I may be... :/)

peace and love

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I'm not going to lie to you,i know what's going on.

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I know its bad, but i think i slightly resent you for getting going to the doctors after like a week of being depressed, whereas nearly 5 years on im scared to go to the doctors just for a chest infection incase he sees my scars.

Getting rejected for TH staff really hit me hard for some reason, it was my reason to keep going and the first postive thing ive done in a long time and i got rejected.

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There's so many things i wish i could ask you, tell you, say to you.

Why are you making me wait? Why can't you have the courage to be honest with me?

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I think ive ruined everything..

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I fake being ill sometimes 'cause it makes me feel better.
I resent my mum.
I despise my best friend.
I don't want my ED to stop.
I like cutting.
I fancy my boss and her girlfriend.
I want to go back into hospital because everyone will be nice to me again.
I've taught someone to purge and i hate myself for it.
Im a whore.

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