[Celyn]

It does make sense!

Often times, with anxiety, we can be our own worst enemy. Wanting to get better, but then feeling anxious when we try to do something new. I avoid things too and in your email, you are definitely correct that though avoiding things helps a little in the short term, in the long term, it does nothing and may even make it harder.

I do understand your anxiety around talking and emailing. I also know what it's like to type something up and then pause before sending, or 'get distracted' and send it later. It sounds like your anxiety is stemming from the fact that you worry it sounds stupid. Remember that this fear, is coming from the negative thought of sounding stupid. But it's just a thought and might not be true (personally, I think your email is well worded and lets the counsellor know what you want to work on). It's also good that your counsellor is there to help you and whatever you talk about in sessions, or between sessions, he won't judge you.

I read a quote ages ago, something like, it only takes 20 seconds of insane courage to change your life. I think that makes sense. You've done the thinking of what you want to say, and typing it out. The last bit is pressing send. You may feel physically anxious, but I promise you, it's such a relief when it's done, and even better when your counsellor can try to help you more too! Also, the more you are able to email your counsellor in between sessions, you may notice that the less anxious you begin to feel as you send him emails.

Hope this helps a little