[Everglow.]

I'm sorry you're having a hard time right now. I can understand why all of that frustrates you and I know Autism has many challenges which make things like this a lot harder. I don't have a whole lot of advice right now, but I wanted to let you know that Autism or not, you're absolutely fine as you are. You can't help how your brain processes things, and you shouldn't beat yourself up over things which are not your fault. But frustration is understandable, and I am sorry you're feeling like this right now.