[taylalatbh.]

I think Nicole has it right. You're not pathetic at all, and sometimes when you're having a hard time in life, you just have this to turn too. I know it's hard to think that you're hurting your boyfriend while you're doing this, but you need to focus on the fact that you're hurting yourself. It's YOU that you should feel like stopping for, and it's YOU that you should feel like getting better for.

You're not pathetic, not at all. You just might need a little bit of help to feel better about things. It's good that you have your boyfriend to care about you, so maybe you should speak to him and try to get some support.

Things will get better, you just need to try. Take care.