Triggering (SH): sh vent

[Em0bxy]

So I was 9 days safe until this morning. I cut myself again. I don't know whether I should tell my therapist this morning or not because I don't want my parents to find out or go to the ER...I didn't cut deep, just cat scratches tbh. I'm really depressed again, my anxiety has been high, I've been eating less, my doctors want me to go residential, it's all going down in flames. I started to sh bc of my ex-abuser, and she never got sent to the hospital or the ER for sh and shit, but that's my whole damn life. PHP, ER, Inpatient, home, repeat. That's been the cycle I am stuck in lately and I don't know how to get out. My arms are burning really bad because of the cuts, I cleaned them out so they're fine. God I don't know what to do rn...

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9 days safe is fantastic and you shouldn't discount that progress just because you had a relapse. Be proud of yourself and even reward yourself if you can!

I think it's worth telling your therapist, especially because of everything else you are talking about in this thread. Maybe if you tell your therapist you went nine days without self harming, which is progress for you, they won't be as concerned and may be more willing to work on strategies with you opposed to taking you to the ER. I can't guarantee that though.

[Em0bxy]

I didn't go to the er, and I did tell her. She called my mom and dad about it, though, but I expected that.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

You have been doing very well.