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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
I get paid £2 less per hour than you, but I work two days of overtime every week on top of voluntary work, plus driving lessons, plus days off. You work fuck all every week and pay a tonne for a car you could never afford. No wonder you're skint. Stop complaining and self pittying - I have no sympathy for you because you have no self control. The only reason you can't afford to live is because you refuse to work more than 18 hours a week and can't keep control of your outgoings. It isn't rocket science. Don't be so lazy and then complain to me you're tired and broke. I'M tired - but I'm not quite as broke because I work bloody hard. You're doing my absolute head in.
Of course you fall asleep in her room. There’s specific reasons I wanted to do this tonight, dammit, and you’re kind of ruining the night she and I had planned.
I think the discussion would have ended up frustrating me because the topic of rape culture was likely going to come up and... I just can't handle discussong that shit right now.
Not because I don't believe it exists but because it hits too close to home and I don't want anymore memories..
Whoever came up with this idea can give up their weekends to pick up the slack that will now drown me and whoever decided not to tell me can help! And there's no way in hell I'm coming in on Saturday. It's my first weekend day off ever, I requested it over a month in advance, and it's not my fault she's not there anymore!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
This week has barely begun and I am dreading it. I'll get through it but I have so many things to do that I don't want to. The main one being ill likely have to go siting social security... And if it was as bad as last time... Idk
I don’t want to be fat anymore. Why did I start eating again? Why did I stop working out??? I’m going back. I can’t be this fat. The scale cannot show this number anymore. I’m not safe at this weight, I’m not lovable at this weight. I have to be thin, I need to be thin.
i shouldn't have eaten i shouldn't have eaten i shouldn't have eaten.
she's wrong, she has to be wrong. these symptoms aren't a problem and if you go to the ER then they'll make you fatter than you already are. it's not an emergency and the symptoms won't get worse. you're fine, you're fine, you're fine.
It's not my fault that the only copy of the necessary form available is "expired." You should've made another one before then. If there's no time limit to apply in the first place, then you shouldn't hold anything against me.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
What's the point, honestly. I try hard and it never makes a difference. I just feel kind of like .. why do I try in life.
I'll get through it. There are a few ways to do so .. I just have to figure it out.
I am also irritated with my family. There is always a reason to not include me ... now apparently the reason is because I am female. So, that's pretty fucking awesome.
Another day at work. The anxiety as I walked towards the shop today isn't right. And I've never felt so hesitant to call and say I'm here. It's draining the life out of me I can't take it.
I'm absolutely sick and tired of being bullied by this family. I'm sick and tired of being walked over. God forbid I try to stand up for myself, I get bitched at.
Geez I'm so salty. Every fucking metal band I listen to is going to tour Europe during upcoming months. Well, Europe? Let's just skip one not-so-fucking-small country in the middle of the continent! Like what the fuck? They're playing in the Czech Republic, the Ukraine, Russia, why won't they come to a one
single
city in my country? Take Germany, HALF of the bands' tours are in Germany. Fucking HALF! What the hell! Instead of visiting one or two cities in most countries in Europe they pick freaking Germany for like seven cities? I could arrange a trip to every part of my country, reeeally, but staying anywhere else for a few days is just not for my pocket people. I could travel to Germany 'cos it's relatively close but if Germany wasn't so fucking expensive for us geezus? I can understand that with current government here it's worse but still there are like people who don't support it and are genuine metal fans who just want to listen to some good freaking music? shit it's not even one single band. not. one. jesus.
So you kick me out of my spot in her room because you’re “tired” but then when I go use the bathroom on my way to bed you’re still up? I mean the lights are on and everything; it’s like you didn’t even try. So next time you’re sooooo sleepy I’m going to remind you of this, you fucking cunt. Teach you to boot me out of my comfort zone when really you just want my spot. Cow.
GODDAMMNIT FOCUS.
get off of this site and focus.
And go play your music...this is what you want but your so scared of what would happen if you try...but what if you don't? Don't let them keep you here. Please.
Why the fuck did you keep talking to me and considered me a friend?! Did you use me because you thought I could solve all your issues and to vent...? Well if thats all it is then goodbye forever. But once you are out of my life, I will die...
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez
I'm officially at my wits end. Not only are you claiming AGAIN that you don't have the documentation, but you NEVER had it late to begin with. You now have 6 of my pay stubs, when 2 is enough. Find your fucking mail and do your Goddamn job! It's NOT that fucking hard.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I'm totally feeling dead inside... I don't know what I'm doing here. I just want to die in a hole. I hate people. I hate life. I want to be gone from this painful place.
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez
My dog suddenly was yelping when we would touch her and sitting/walking really funny. We rushed her to the vet and they did blood work and tests to rule out twisted gut or anything else. Now she’s at home while we wait for the results. Frick this week.
I wonder if my parents know that what they say keeps me up at night.
yeah, your brother molested you, but he’s your brother. be nice to him.
...he’s not my brother he’s my fucking abuser you dumb fucking rape culture brainwashed bitch
Oh, hey anxiety, how are you doing?
It seems like you have every intention of making my life miserable.
That's cool since I am so damn used to it.
I have been needing you to come back in my life and ruin things
I am probably going to take my medication soon which will help me sleep until my body adjusts. The psych will probably want to up it when I go back.
I think I should probably be hospitalized but I am trying to get this worked out before that ... if that happens I'll be mostly screwed so there is that.
I need to keep busy but I need my hypomania or mania to stop too.
For God's sake, let's plan a get together for Easter a week before. I get that spontaneity works for you all but ... I hate having to interact and I feel like I have to when you are all here. If I do and he doesn't you all act like he's weird OR being an asshole.
Him and I feel the same way about you, mostly. He won't say a ton because you are my family and he doesn't want to disrespect you all. We agree that it's stupid you think he has to interact all the time especially when you throw these random gatherings. I used to hate it too but I went because I was worried about making you all upset or something.
I don't care as much now and he helped me with that...but because I don't care as much you all take it to mean he's had a bad influence.
God dang it, I don't want to deal with this next week.
I feel like we are going through a nasty divorce and you are dragging our kids though it. I know how things were with you and Dad, and you are doing the exact same thing with me and Mamaw. Just do us all a favor and go away. You say it over and over yourself, you don't like any of us. Just screw off.