Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Everglow.]

Up late again with anxiety. My stomach hurts today. I hate being in this job and I'm tired of feeling so trapped.

[Mindfulness.]

I hope I'm just overreacting.

[Mindfulness.]

I hope this feeling continues. I don't want to relapse again.

I wish I could tell you the truth, but to you I am already always a mess. Letting you know I'm not entirely happy would probably just feed into that narrative and I am uncomfortable with that. Still, it'd be nice to be honest.

I kind of just feel overwhelmed

[Mindfulness.]

I hope it works out in the end.

[Soda_Voxel]

Why can't you just hate me? I'm not good enough, i hurt everyone, just leave me like i deserve. i am so tired of having to put on a fake smile just because my friends want it.

[Wisteria103]

Wow, you ruined my life and I hardly even know you. And you have absolutely no idea.

[Everglow.]

I hate feeling like this. I feel like I'm going to cry.

[MWF]

I'm so lonely...

[Mindfulness.]

I wish I learn how to rest.

I'm failing

[Everglow.]

My face hurts.
I'm not okay.

That is not the answer I was hoping for. I feel very disappointed that you can't spare an extra hour or two a week, especially when y'all have so much time together now that she's done with school for the summer.

I know I matter a lot to you, I do. But sometimes it doesn't fucking feel like it.

[Mindfulness.]

I really hope this doesn't happen again.

[Everglow.]

It's like all my triggers are happening at once and I dont know how to cope.

[Kate*]

Please tell me "probably" meant yes; because if it didn't I'm screwed and I'll definitely be leaving.

[Mindfulness.]

Let's hope he was telling the truth.

[Mindfulness.]

I guess I just have to wait and see.

[Starseeker]

I despise this feeling of hopelessness.

Why aren't you texting me? You promised you would.

Weight gain shouldn't make you suicidal

[Kate*]

Your lack of ability or willingness to schedule responsibly is not my problem, and it's obvious you need me WAY more than I need you. So GET IT TOGETHER ASAP or you're losing me!

[Kate*]

So, the world is just a horrible place and there's nothing we can do?! THIS is why nothing changes and I'm not okay with it.

[Mindfulness.]

And here we go again...

[Kate*]

We need to make it a rule not to stick your hands in people's faces. Even forgetting the pandemic, it's just rude. And that's why I HATE working weekends. I get nothing done because there are literally people EVERYWHERE and no matter where I try to go, they're in my way. MOVE!

I'm tired of wanting to die

[Mindfulness.]

I really hope I don't succumb to my mental health again.

[Kate*]

Do your job better so I can stop drowning. I am sick to death of being stuck with and blamed for other people not doing their jobs!

[Soda_Voxel]

Urrghhh I just want to run away from home. Have a day where I can just be alone and hate myself in private, away from this shitty home in a shitty boring place. I hate living where I live, I hate living as me, too.

[Starseeker]

I focus too much on whining about how far you are, even though you've never been close enough.

I could kill myself but if I weren't successful I'd screw everything up. That's the only thing that's stopping me

[Mindfulness.]

I just want to know what will happen.

[Kate*]

There is a MOUSE and it was in MY ROOM again. I am NOT OKAY. At least we got it out and put a rug under the door.

This is making me anxious but it'll be okay

[Kate*]

I've officially done everything I can do to handle this outside of business hours. Do your job and give me my fucking meds, I need them for a reason!

[Mindfulness.]

I wish it wouldn't take so long.

[Starseeker]

I experienced such a sudden mental breakdown yesterday. It crushed me.

Fuck the US healthcare system. I called around to FOUR fucking urgent cares to see if they took my insurance. The only one that did is a walk-in, first come, first serve clinic, but they don't do x-rays and I need an x-ray. That means my only option is the ER. But wait, there's more! The ER is all well and good, and you get treated there, but trying to follow up with your PCP is impossible because the clinics that take government insurance are already booked to the max with regular appointments. They can't fit you in! It's fucking ridiculous! Even more so if you need a specialist, because you have to see the PCP for a referral for a specialist. It's just fucking nuts.

[Soda_Voxel]

You were such a good friend. You cared for me, you loved me, and at one point, I loved you too. Why did you have to turn sour? Why can't you respect their boundaries, and let bygones be bygones? I trusted you and cared about you even though you weren't perfect. I've known you since I was a little kid and you'd always made me laugh and helped me fit in. Why? Why can't you just be kind now? They clearly don't want to talk to you anymore, just leave them be. I'm so disappointed in you.