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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 12th 2014, 02:39 AM
I'm NOT ready to go back tomorrow and I'm paranoid that she will show up AGAIN and I will be required to delay my life because of her for the sake of my sanity. WHERE IS MY SYLLABUS?! Last semester I got it a week early which made my decision easy, this time, nothing, really??!! If you hadn't helped me last time I would've nagged you by now.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 13th 2014, 07:05 PM
I leave for class in an HOUR please decide what building I'm going to. You've changed buildings 3 times in 24 hours. And PLEASE GOD, DO NOT let her show up there or I will drop immediately. If SHE can handle 10 people by herself, surely the guy with the degree can handle 11 of us on his own.
So the grading scale is a little bit different. I've made the decision to stay, so hopefully it's different enough that I can pass this time. If I do just like I did last time I won't, but at least one grade will be higher because I'm already A LOT more comfortable with him than I ever was with either of them and I feel like if I asked him to help me, he would actually give me something I could use. If he can get me above a 6 for the first time since the second one then I will be fine. It's all confidence and once that's restored I can do anything. Of course I felt this good last semester and it fell apart. PLEASE don't let the language barrier cost me points! I have nothing against her, but trouble understanding her could interfere and lower my score.
The last time I didn't get the bitch there were twice as many people and the last time there were this many people, I got the bitch. Both those problems are fixed now so maybe I can do it. I'm scared (and I should be), but I'm sick of running away in fear, losing my friends, and falling behind.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; January 14th 2014 at 03:45 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 13th 2014, 07:57 PM
Oh my god.
You had a dream about her last night; and then you saw an elderly woman that looked just like her. I had a vision last night, and I saw a woman just like her walking down a major highway today. When he died, I had a vision and fell asleep the same minute his heart stopped beating. She has to make it. Just five more days, please. Just so I can hug her for one last time. We're either crazy or we're even closer to the end..
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Location: Second Star to the Right and Straight on 'til Morning
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[MERGED] Screaming Thread. -
January 15th 2014, 06:18 PM
No, YOU are the bitch.
Maybe if you listened you'd know I was depressed!
I've told you how hard menial tasks are for me. And how hard they have been for me for the past two years. I've told you that I wanted to commit suicide. I've told you that it's hard just to get out of bed in the mornings. I've told you that Brady breaking up with me hurt more that I told him. I've told you how much pain I am in every single day.
You didn't listen.
And if it hadn't been for Will, I wouldn't be here.
You don't love me.
I am YOUR DAUGHTER. But you do not love me. You never will.
And I will never again give you the opportunity to know me.
I am going to college in a year and a half. When I go I am never coming back.
And guess what? There is nothing you can do to stop me.
I am the one who loved you. I am the one who stayed. I am the one and you walked away. I am the one who waited, and now you act like you just don't give a damn. Like you never knew who I am.
Last edited by Adam the Fish; January 15th 2014 at 09:14 PM.
Reason: Merged Consecutive Posts.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 15th 2014, 11:13 PM
Great, I finally think I can master that and now this. You are absolutely AWESOME which is really the only reason I took the class to begin with. PLEASE don't let me get dismissed for losing participation points in it! And please let me get a good group so that that doesn't compound the problem. I COMPLETELY understand the reasoning behnd it and that's not what I'm arguing with, I'm taking steps to handle the issue, please don't let me lose everything in the meantime.
I was worried about having nothing to talk about next week: Now I have an excellent place to start.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 16th 2014, 12:02 AM
I'm extremely exhausted and dissociative. I feel unreal. Floaty. Lightheaded. Fake. It's all a dream.. wake me up.
Another bad grade. An F. F is for failing. F is for not good enough. F.F.F.F. If I keep this up, I'm going to fail the entire class. And I can't possibly tell them that I'm struggling.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 16th 2014, 01:29 AM
Don't. Don't you dare acknowledge a single one of them. You have a boyfriend, Taylor, one that loves you very much, that or of course he's using you and you're just the stupid little whore again. Sure, that's how it always fucking is, right? Don't look at Matthew, remember what he told you. Remember how he hurt you. Don't look at Cody, remember what he did. You have a boyfriend, Taylor. Get a fucking grip. Not that he actually likes you or anything and he'll probably dump you for someone actually cool and pretty and better at everything. You're a disaster. Why do you even try? Wake up. Stop looking at them.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 16th 2014, 02:46 AM
BYAHHHHH!!!! (Howard Dean Scream)
The neon burns a hole in the night, and the Freon burns a hole in the sky.
You can find my kind living right on the fault line, eyes on the seaside, lives on the B-side, kites on the power lines.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 17th 2014, 03:02 AM
Whoops, did I just less than half ass that essay? If you can't send me the right materials, then I can't write the right essay! You didn't specify how long it was, so I did a paragraph. And you know what? I don't give a shit. You want bullshit about characteristics of life and blah, I'll give you a characteristic. Death. Humans are born to die. And they don't come back. Fail me, bitch. I dare you. Go ahead. I'm already feeling bad enough so another let down won't hurt me much more.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 18th 2014, 04:17 AM
Trying not to give in but so desperately want to. My bones are terrible right now.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 20th 2014, 04:48 AM
Wow. I just realized, that, I have, like, no sense of time. At all. I came across something from two weeks ago and it seems like it was just yesterday. I'm going through the motions. What the fuck is my problem?
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 23rd 2014, 06:03 AM
Who in their right mind ordered the fire drills at 3:20AM yesterday and 1:45 AM this morning in the middle of f***ing JANUARY?!?!?! The next time I leave this building at that hour in my pajamas in the freezing cold there had better be a REAL FIRE!
Great, I find out 12 hours before that this guy is out-of-network. This had better be affordable because I need it so bad I don't care anymore, but maybe the self-pay rate will be reasonable or I can work something out.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; January 23rd 2014 at 07:06 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 24th 2014, 04:43 AM
My back is killing me. And this is so uncomfortable.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 25th 2014, 03:27 AM
Thanks for being a bitch. I didn't want it to end this way but whatever, I'm fucking hurt but you don't seem to give a damn. This is just what i need right now. Fuck you..
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 26th 2014, 05:29 AM
I think I actually have a chance at recovering this time.. and that fucking terrifies me.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 26th 2014, 02:56 PM
Just want Sunday where I'm not doing anything. Have a day resting but no. Come barging into my room with some old box and start talking to me WHEN I CAN'T EVEN HEAR YOU because my headphones are on and when I say I'll look in a minute, you continue talking to me and don't leave me alone. Now I'm in a bad mood. Thanks.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 26th 2014, 04:28 PM
I love how it wasn't even a real conversation. That's all you wanted Skype for, to further pester me for things I have already said no to a thousand times. I wanted to see your face and talk to you. But you could have cared less.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 27th 2014, 02:43 PM
You can't guilt me into shopping and going through all thousands of my pictures and then get upset when I fail the quiz/assignments tomorrow and this week. This was my homework day and you're guilting me into other shit. I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO COME HOME BUT I DID BECAUSE I'M NICE.
Don't get mad at me when I fail this time.
"We all have battle scars, Finn. Suck it up and build a brace for yours."
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 27th 2014, 02:59 PM
Ow. Cramps. I hate being a girl. And I hate PMS.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 29th 2014, 12:10 AM
I've written this paper 4 times now, and gotten full points the other 3. You don't understand how badly I needed full points! And that's after you said you WEREN'T grading hard. What the f***?!?! and I don't even know why I lost a point for "turning it in by the deadline' when it was submitted a day EARLY! If I fail again it won't be for lack of effort, it will be your grading scale.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 29th 2014, 10:00 PM
I AM A FUCKING WORTHLESS, UGLY, FOOLISH PIECE OF DEPRESSING, HOPELESS SHIT AND I HOPE I DIE. EVERYONE WANTS ME TO DIE. EVERYONE WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT ME IN THEIR LIVES AND I'M NOT AN IDIOT, I FUCKING SEE THAT NOW. PAT IS GOING TO BREAK UP WITH ME AND ITS NO SECRET WHY. WHY WOULD ANYONE LOVE ME? MATTHEW HATES MY FUCKING GUTS AND I SHOULDN'T CARE BUT I DO WAY TOO MUCH. I'M A DICK TO MIMI AND A DICK TO MY FRIENDS, I AM A HUGE-ASS BURDEN ON MY FAMILY, AND I AM JUST THIS NUCLEAR BOMB WAITING TO EXPLODE AND EVERYONE IS RUNNING FOR THE HILLS.
I'M FAT, FAKE, CRAZY, RECKLESS, STUPID, DESPERATE, AND A WHORE. I DON'T EVEN GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE. I HOPE WHEN I WALK OUTSIDE AN ICICLE FALLS ON MY HEAD AND GOES THROUGH MY SKULL OR I GET HIT BY A BUS OR I JUST SHRIVEL UP AND ROT AWAY.
FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.
WHY DO I EVEN TRY ANYMORE GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 30th 2014, 11:02 PM
I'm so fucking sorry that you have to pay for my contacts, Mom. When I get a job I'll fucking pay for them. But trying to get me to wear my contacts for longer than they're recommended to save your precious money MAY NOT BE FUCKING SAFE. I'm sorry that I don't want to get an eye infection, or have the contacts not work as effectively because I wore them longer than I was supposed to. I'll be out of your house and out of your wallet when I'm 18. Until then just chill the fuck out and read the directions - daily. disposable. contacts.
Not two days. Not three days. DAILY.