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Unhappy I want to die - September 26th 2016, 11:56 PM

Ever since I was a kid, I have been rejected by society. People thought I was retarded, stupid, ugly, weird, gross... You name it. Everyone was mean to me: my teachers, random people I didn't know, my sisters (my parents didn't want to admit to them selves that I was retarded (even though I clearly was) but they did him me (spank me) when they were frustrated and didn't SAY I was slow). In the fourth grade (I think I was eight?), I just realized how mean everyone was and I started noticing how bad everyone thought of me. It hurt me, but it didn't really take effect until fifth grade and especially sixth. I was bullied by a "regular" bully in a class. She made everything worse. In the seventh grade, that's when I wanted to commit suicide more and more everyday. I wanted to die, I hated myself, I hurt myself, I hated life... I was already tired of life and ready to end everything. I guess that's when my resting bitch face came and no one wanted to talk me, thankfully. In the eight, I had a teacher that helped me with my problems and listening and cared about me. I wish I had told her how I felt sooner, and got her email or something for a few years, but she's gone now. I miss her and that just adds more to the pain. Now I'm in the ninth grade and I get bullied by multiple people multiple times a day 24/7. I just absolutely hate myself and I don't give a single shit about myself anymore. I don't care, at all, what happens to my dumb ugly stank ass. I hate everything, everyone, my life, myself, and this world. I'm just ready to end everything.

My real name is Jada, and I'm a fourteen year old female that lives in America that's ready to die. I do have one friend but I don't want her know I'm depressed, even though she's not fake and won't turn on me (I tested her many times, she's true), I just dont want her to worry. I have been diagnosed with severe depression by a certified therapist. I doubtanyone cares...

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Re: I want to die - September 27th 2016, 01:01 AM

Hey there Hiiragi
I had saw your post and I was wondering maybe you wanted someone to listen to you and someone who could relate. I'm always here to talk to There's another wonderful friend on here, his name on here is greenyoshi He's also helpful and very nice. As a little backstory tho, I've also dealt with similar struggles as well and also have severe depression as well as severe anxiety. I've quite frequent on posting in the depression and suicide forum, because I as well have suicidal issues. Come talk to me anytime tho! I also wanted to say tho the things those people have told you, don't listen to them. You were made special and greatly unique and there is nothing wrong with you at all! You are a wonderful and beautiful person!



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So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night
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Re: I want to die - September 27th 2016, 03:59 AM

Hi! I read you're post and wanted to say I'm sorry for the things you've gone through. It's not fair, and you shouldn't have been treated that way. I've gone through some things of my own and I just wanted to let you know that I'm here to talk wether it's about depression or you're just bored. Feel free to message me! Hope you have a good rest of your day
   
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Re: I want to die - September 27th 2016, 11:12 AM

Thank you everyone for your support! I'll get to know more about you two later today. Thanks again.
   
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