Triggering: Major Depression

[caseycares]

Hi. I'm a sixteen year old girl suffering major depression.. Right now, I'm on a prescription called Zoloft. I'm on my first month and still as confused as hell about what's going on with me. I feel as though I'm going crazy, but my counselor says no. I believe her, but at the same time, she hasn't gone through all of the things I went through.. my mood was apathetic, but now it's at a very calm mood. I wish that everything would make sense. And I don't know how long it will take until i'm normal.
**Right now, I honestly don't know how I feel about my guy friend. He said that he would wait for me, but I had to let him go becuase I was stressing about him, attached to him and i don't know whether my feeling are true for him or not.. i don't know why, but he's always on my mind alot. "I hope he tells me hi" and all that stuff.. Whenever he doesn't study me, my heart hurts alot, even when I'm apathetic.. I get so shy when I'm around him, yet I pluck up the courage to harrass him.. Could i like him and not know it..? Do i like him alot? could I possibly be in love with him and not know it??

I wish this was never here so I could've been with him but I'm honestly confused..

Or words of encouragement or experience would be nice as well

Advice or help please

[Katrina]

Hi there,

Firstly, welcome to the boards. (: So lovely to see that you've learned your way around and have been able to post - I hope you find what you're looking for here. I ran a quick search about the average time it takes for Zoloft to work, and while everyone is different, it looks like the general consensus (just from what people have posted, which obviously isn't always a reputable source) is 6-8 weeks. The National Alliance of Mental Illness' website states:

Disturbances in sleep, energy, or appetite may show some improvement within the first 1-2 weeks and can be an important early signal that the medication is working. Other symptoms such as depressed mood or lack of interest in activities may take 4-6 weeks before improvement is evident.

Like other medications used for anxiety disorders (e.g. PTSD, OCD) sertraline may take several weeks before it is fully effective. It is important to give the medication sufficient time before judging whether or not it will work for a given person.]

As far as the guy goes, I guess you both kind of have to do what's best for yourselves. IE: If being around him is causing you anxiety, perhaps it might be better to not be around him as much. "Love" is different for everyone, but I think your heart and your intuition know exactly what it is to you, and I think they'll let you know when you find it. (: If things were to improve with you, what kind of changes would you be seeing in yourself regarding this guy? Likewise, what kind of changes do you think he might be saying that he'd be seeing?

I'm rooting for ya, Casey. Take good care of yourself.

[caseycares]

Thanks mehn.. My guy friend and I are different from each other.. One thing we have in common is that we are crazy! we might've had some things in common, but now i'll never know.. but I know I did the right thing in letting him go. it just sucks because even though i'm apathetic, I still want him and like him for who he is and I know we would've had fun together becuase we're fun and crazy people! o well.. maybe I'll be lucky in the future.. you'll never know

[Liz94]

Keep going with the counselling that will help alot with the confusion.

As for the guy friend, contact him again and tell him you like his support and need it, see what comes of that.

I know you can beat this and get though
Just hang on in there and before you know it things would of improved

X

[caseycares]

did you go through it?

[Astha Srivastav]

well.... I don't know much about depression even though I may be facing it myself... but I DO know about guys and feelings...guys are shyer than girls while confronting their feelings.... what do you think? does he love you too? think about you as much? and why exactly do you face anxiety and stress when near him?