I'm pushing everyone away.

[littlemissinsecure]

Everything seems so pointless. I don't want to pretend. I don't want to go to all these stupid appointments. They don't help. Nothing does. I'm tired of awkward questions.
What's the point?

[*Jen*]

Hey there,

I am sorry that you are feeling like this at the moment. Things sound pretty hard for you at the moment. I have felt similar to you in the past; everything just felt pointless and I couldn't see anyway out of it. But there are ways out. You have come this far already and can come further if you want to. You just have to take each day at a time and set yourself small goals and you will get there. You just have to focus on the small things that make life worth it when there doesn't seem any point. It could be anything.. I have a horse so when I am struggling I remind myself that she needs me. I realise it doesn't take away all the feeling you have but sometimes you forget about all the small things you have so it can be helpful to think about them.

I can understand that you don't want to go to all these appointments. It must be really frustrating having to go when you don't want to and then not getting anything out of it. Have you talked to them about them not helping? Perhaps there is something they could do to make it more helpful. You deserve help but you have to reach out for it. I know it can seem pointless though when it isn't helping but I am sure there will be something that will help. It might just take time to find that thing. I have seen countless professionals some of which have not been helpful at all but there have been others that have helped even if it is just a small bit. It can take time to find that person that will help.

I am here if you want to talk Stay strong.

[Amberpamber]

Hey,

I know how it feels to feel like there's no point in trying anymore, but trust me there is. Sometimes it takes the right person at the right time, to say the right thing before things click. Don't give up, keep pushing forward. Things can and will get better. Feel free to talk to me anytime you want, I'll always listen and try to help.