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Desimated - January 27th 2011, 02:25 AM

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Oh my god. I can't take it. It feels so...perfect. Every sense is wrapped up in it. Hearing the scratching, feeling the heat, seeing the blood drip, smelling that coppery scent it gives. It's the only place I can run away to. That world of pain. I'm completely losing my grip on everything. Everything is torn apart.


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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:08 AM

Oh Blair=( We gotta think of something to replace cutting. Its just not good for you at all.


   
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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:18 AM

I can't let go of it and I know right now more than ever how bad it is. That's why I'm clutching onto any lie I can think of right now. I'm desperate. Desperate enough to justify thus to myself somehow because I need it


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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:21 AM

You can do it, I know you can. You have gone without it before. Like yesterday. You just need support and help.


   
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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:26 AM

If I need to cut I can because it's my body and anything that happens from it only effects me so it's my life and it's okay


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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:43 AM

It is your body and you can do whatever you want but what you do does effect others sometimes. I worry about you when I hear about this stuff and I hurt because I want you to be okay and happy. I wish you could see that too.


   
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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:47 AM

I'm sorry then. I won't say anything about it. I feel badly for upsetting you. I'm really sorry


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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:55 AM

Nono, yes it is sad for me to hear you are doing badly but I want to help. I can't help unless I know.


   
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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 03:57 AM

Please then don't be upset by it. I REALLY don't wanna upset you =(


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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 04:09 AM

Its okay. We can make it through together=)


   
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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 10:50 PM

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If I need to cut I can because it's my body and anything that happens from it only effects me so it's my life and it's okay
When we cut ourselves, it's easy to get wrapped up in what's going on in our own brains and within our own bodies. Cutting is something very physical, and as such it requires one to be very focused on themselves, whether they realize it or not.

However, there is still an entire world of people out there that still cares about you- your friends, your family, maybe a boyfriend/girlfriend, teachers, coaches, peers, co-workers...cutting leaves very visible evidence in its wake, which is the point, but it also let's people know you are hurting and in turn hurting yourself in a very powerful way. People react to that; they are affected by those marks. In some small, tiny way, and sometimes in a very big way, it touches on their lives.

Cutting is never just about you and your body. It will always affect the people who are close to you, who care about you, and even those who see you on a daily basis.



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Re: Desimated - January 27th 2011, 10:54 PM

I cut on my stomach/thighs...no one sees it but me.


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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 12:38 AM

But people know you do it, people here. That still effects them because they can feel empathy and compassion for you and your situation.



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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 01:11 AM

Okay well I'm sorry. I actually really am but I can't live without it


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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 01:25 AM

No one is blaming you. It's really hard to cope without something you depend on for your emotional stability.



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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 01:40 AM

Exactly...so if I don't kill myself, it's all ok


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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 01:46 AM

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Not necessarily. This entire thread shows that you're not exactly happy right now. That counts for something. Even if you haven't gone as far as ending your own life, something isn't right here, or you wouldn't have made this thread. I don't know exactly what's going on in your life, but I do know that you don't want to feel this way forever. And if that's the case, do something about it. Reach out for help. Change your ways. I know it's easier said than done, but I believe you can do it.


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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 01:52 AM

My life is awful but it's not from cutting. I kinda made this thread because I wanted to see if someone could convince me why not to cut. Not just don't cut or it's not good to cut but actually say something that makes me not love it. I know it seems strange and unnatural but apart from that, I can justify everything about it


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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 02:59 AM

But the truth is, no one can make you not love it anymore. You have to find it in yourself why you should stop and why you should turn your life around. Not a single person here can give you that answer. Only you.



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Re: Desimated - January 28th 2011, 03:22 AM

Well look at it this way, why should you have to suffer? NOBODY and I mean NOBODY should ever harm you, including yourself. Whatever has happened, you do not deserve to be harmed. Cutting in general is bad for you because there is the danger of losing too much blood and you are risking infection everytime you do it.


   
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Re: Desimated - January 29th 2011, 03:49 AM

Hey,

We can't make you not love cutting, but we can offer you our support and love. I know that it's so tempting to cut, but when you feel like cutting, resist even if you don't feel like resisting. Set goals for yourself and reward yourself for not cutting.
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Re: Desimated - January 29th 2011, 04:10 AM

I just can think of more reasons to cut than I can think of to stop cutting. As much as it seems obvious that someone shouldn't physically injure themself, I don't see alot of real reason to stop. It's EVERYTHING. When I screw up I can punish myself by cutting. When I'm overwhelmed I can escape from things by cutting. When I'm tired I can wake myself up by cutting...it does so much for me


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