Non-PG13: I think I am addicted to sex?!

[Pup]

I think I am... I never though I was before but my behavior I think states otherwise. I moved in with my boyfriend about three weeks ago. At first we had sex every day. Then it slowed down to every other day. I noticed on days we did not have sex (because he was either too tired or for some reason just did not want to have sex) I got angry... so angry that I just wanted to push him away and yell and scream and be alone. Earlier today he had me pinned up against the wall (in a sexual, not abusive way) and I told him I wanted him, but because I had a doctor's appointment we had to wait. He works nights and usually goes to bed around 2pm. I have had a lot on my mind lately and laid down in bed to write in my journal and fell asleep around 1 or 2... he just came to bed at 4:30 completely exhausted and I tried to engage in sexual activity with him but he was too tired and while trying to explain that to me I grabbed the blanket and pulled it tight around me, turned my back to him, and said quite rudely, bluntly, and angrily "I don't really care." (But I didn't mean it and felt awful afterwards, hugged him and apologized). I am extremely frustrated and just wanted to shove him away, smack or kick him.

I notice this is a pattern with me. I ALWAYS want sex. Before I moved in with my boyfriend I masturbated excessively, more than once a day, sometimes up to 5-7 times one sitting (I would do it until my muscles down there clenched up and it actually started to hurt to orgasm). When I do not have a significant other I will have sex with random strangers (With two strangers in one day on a rare occasion, or engage in sexual activity with friends that I normally wouldn't want to have sex with), and when I do have a significant other I will have sex with them at every opportunity and still not be satisfied and masturbate regularly.

The difference now is I don't want to masturbate, I want him! I haven't masturbated since I moved in with him three weeks ago. It makes not having sex make me all the more irritable and grumpy. It's not that I'm trying to abstain from masturbation or anything, I'm just not interested in it. I haven't even really bothered trying, one time he orgasmed before me and I tried to finish myself off and I just couldn't do it. It didn't feel good or anything, it wasn't stimulating at all. And having sex with him just once when I want it, I DO feel satisfied.

I don't have any other symptoms of sexual addiction other than having it effect my relationships and sexual promiscuity. I don't really watch porn and otherwise it doesn't really effect anything.

What can I do about it? I don't have health insurance so therapy is not an option for me at this point, nor can I afford any type of sex rehab (and honestly I really wouldn't want to go to anything like that anyways, this is a private problem I'd like to deal with privately).

[Alrex]

Definately sounds like addiction

You can get addicted to anything, and the only thing is to limit yourself and let time take effect

Say you masturbate 5-7 times a day

limit yourself to 4 for a week, then 3 for the next week, then 2, etc

[Pup]

Thank you for your help. I talked to my boyfriend about it and he said it is fine as long as I do not take my frustration out on him, do not cheat on him, and learn to control myself. I am going into week 4 of no masturbation... and he is very helpful in limiting my sexual activity as when he doesn't want it, he just doesn't want it, and gets a little cross if I try to "change his mind" or whine about it.

I think I can get through this.