Non-PG13: Im Loosing it

[WolfBlade]

From time to time I feel evil things around me, and sometimes I can see slight glimpses of demonic looking creatures. not like actually see them, but in my head I see a little flash, but it feels like there there, and I know its all imaginary. The thing is I like it when I can feel them. And I tend to do things that cause the feelings to increase, like sitting in total darkness or smoking pot. I was a very light pot smoker before this started but now I do it whenever I can just so I can feel and see the creatures.

I want them to come and I want the insanity they bring. Now iv never really lost it and Im always aware that its all in my head, but it doesn't retract from the near pleasure i get just from the experiences iv had with these things.

So yea, I dont know what to do, so far I feel mostly sane but it seems to be getting more drastic as time goes by and I dont know if I should get some professional help or just leave it until it gets serious.

What do you guys think?

[Thirteen]

Well, considering you're saying that seeing these things is caused by marijuana smoking (which has no actual hallucinogenic properties, thus does NOT make people "see things"), seems like this is something in your head. Whether you have a vivid imagination, or a mental illness, isn't really the issue right now.

The biggest issue, in my opinion, is the fact that you're relying on smoking pot to see things (especially considering, as I said, that's not something pot actually DOES). You've got a drug dependence, pretty much. If you're feeling a need to smoke up as a way to "activate your imagination" (seems like the most logical explanation right now), that's not healthy.

I'd suggest talking to a counselor, especially if you can find one that deals with teenagers and drugs. Because seriously, I don't think you actually have any mental health issues.

I could be wrong, but the fact is, marijuana is used (at least here) medicinally to HELP mental illnesses, even ones with psychosis (hallucinations, for example). Thus why, the fact that you smoke up IN ORDER TO see things has me thinking it's an active imagination and a drug issue.

[WolfBlade]

I never said it was caused by pot, i said it brings it on stronger. I get all this stuff anyways but on pot it makes it seem more apparent, also I was hearing and seeing this stuff before I ever tried pot (as I said in my first post) but other then that, i just cant afford a counseling and neither can my folks

[baara]

Though it may seem attractive, what these creatures "bring" is hard to deal with.