Can't sleep...?

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First, I'm not sure if this is in the right place or not, but it seemed right.

Now, as you may have guessed from the title, I am having some trouble sleeping. I have some medication that helps me sleep with the bronchitis that I have, so I take 1-2 (dose I am supposed to take) pills right before I go to sleep. Last night, I took my normal does of pills before bed (2), and was trying to sleep. I simply could not fall asleep. I finally went under at 8 in the morning after taking 3 more pills. Right now, its almost 3 in the morning, and I still can't sleep. I have tried listening to music, which usually helps, and right now I am on the couch watching T.V. trying to sleep. The thing is, I AM tired, I just physically CANNOT sleep.

I have been under a lot of stress lately. About a week ago, I almost commited suicide. I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping since then, and have broken out crying for no reason, several times a day. Since I almost killed myself, I have also been having bad nightmares, and I feel numb and scared of myself.

I am really wondering why I am having trouble sleeping, and if there is anything I can do to help myself sleep. Also, the reason why I have been having nightmares, feeling scared and numb, and crying so much ever since I almost killed myself and how I could fix all that would be appreciated. Thank You so much!

Also, nobody but some people on TH know about my problems, and I am not planning on telling anybody anytime soon.

-Lorra

[Coal]

You could have depression. Depression causes suicidal feelings, the feeling of emptiness or numbness, sadness, excessive crying and sleeping problems. Or it may not be depression, since I'm not qualified enough to diagnose you. I would still recommend you to talk to someone. If you're a minor and don't want your parents to know, try talking to the school counselor, they usually don't have the legal obligation to tell your parents about your issues (at least where I live, I don't know about the U.S. so ask her beforehand, just in case). If you're no longer a minor, you can go to a professional without being worried that anyone will find out since they're not authorized to tell anyone about your problems without your consent.

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I don't feel like I can tell anyone. But thanks, I have been considering depression and some others, but I know it's bad to self diagnose. My nightmares are getting worse and I don't know what to do. Thanks all

[Palmolive]

Hi there.

I'm sorry that things seem to be quite rough for you right now. Well done for coming on here and making a thread.

Firstly, you could have a mental illness such as depression but as we're not medically trained, I can't tell you for sure, how ever I want to encourage you to reach out for help. I know that is scary, I really do, but you can look into therapy to help you and even medication if your doctor etc agrees its in your best interests. People can help you, you never have to be alone in this.

Feeling suicidal is horrible and can be really exhausting and it makes it harder when you can't sleep and I can relate to that. Have you tried getting baths before bed time to help you relax? Maybe having a hot choccy too. You could also try going for a walk in the evening to tire yourself out a bit more. I did some research online and read that wild lettuce helps calms you down which might help you sleep. Things like aromatherapy might help to, such as spraying lavender spritz in your room. If you feel comfortable to do so, you could try doing some meditation or yoga before bed which might help. These might be worth a shot.

I really hope you're okay and that things start to look up for you. If you ever need anything, feel free to shoot me a PM.

Jessie