I'm going crazy

[Up In The Clouds]

I have these compulsions to lie all the time about who I am. I love daydreaming, but I'm getting the things I've been daydreaming confused with reality. I want to lie to people, and I do all the time. I bite myself more, and I'm obsessed with what other people think of me. I keep wanting people to die more.

I can't tell anybody. I get crazy episodes, but I feel fine after.

[Amberpamber]

Honestly I would tell some1 so you can get help managing these episodes. It could end up getting out of control before you know it, so I would definately talk to a doctor about it and see what they have to say.

[Up In The Clouds]

I'm better now. Last night I had kind of a breakdown. I told this girl I wanted her to burn in hell forever and suffer immensely.

[Childish Giggle]

Hey there
I am sorry that you're going through a bad time.
As Amber said, you should tell someone about these episodes before they get out of control. You can tell a number of people. Your family, siblings, a school counselor. Anyone who you think will be able to get you help. Check out this thread to know where you can get help.
You may feel better after the episode, but don't treat those episodes lightly because of that. You might end up doing something to yourself that you might regret later . Or you might end up saying something to someone you don't mean to. It is important that you get professional help for this.
I hope it works out for you. Keep us updated
If you need to talk, I am just a VM/PM away.
Stay strong <3