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Returning to sport (please help!!!!) -
November 10th 2011, 02:59 AM
Ok so I used to be apart of my schools colorguard team but it was discovered by my coaches that I had eating issues- we went to band camp and i wouldn't really eat and no matter what they tried i still didn't, and eventually i got sent home for my health and I was cut from the team.
I've been working on eating better and feeling better about myself and I really miss color guard and am ready to go back. But i'm afraid that i'll be treated differently, that i'll be watched, and just that nothing will be what it use to be for me at colorguard. Then theres the issue that the head coach is a male and he just got really annoyed and mad at me for not eating and now i'm afraid about what he or the other coaches will say when I come back. My teammates also got mad at me and everything for not eating (thinking i just did it for attention, and that i'm a drama queen) and i'm afraid to face them again.
They (the coaches and the team) also think that i am anorexic and or bulimic and so then i'm afraid if i go back i'll be surpervised at meals at competitions, and other things. I feel like they'll think if i get dizzy or fall or get weak it would be from not eating when it wouldn't be.
I guess i'm really just afraid of being treated differently then everyone else.
I don't really know what to do!!!! Can someone please give me advice or anything really!!!!
So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.
Last edited by pinke567; November 10th 2011 at 08:39 PM.
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