Triggering (Substances): Erm, dope.

[erichaarikeric]

I'm not good at talking about my problems, can't even talk about them with people I trust but here goes. Well my life fucking sucks. And always has been. The drug stuff started when someone really important to me died. I don't want to go into detail, but instead of fucking crying and blaming myself, I numbed it with heroin. Since then, I thought was getting better but recently its been bad since losing someone I've loved for almost a year (not by death). The cravings were fucking horrible and I've gotten into it again. I'm depressed or feel physically shitty if I don't have it. I can't deal with losing people. I have go cling on to them, and if I lose them, or even think I do, I go fucking insane. I need a new way to deal with shit, cause this isn't working.

[Shawn K.]

Originally Posted by erichaarikeric

I'm not good at talking about my problems, can't even talk about them with people I trust but here goes. Well my life fucking sucks. And always has been. The drug stuff started when someone really important to me died. I don't want to go into detail, but instead of fucking crying and blaming myself, I numbed it with heroin. Since then, I thought was getting better but recently its been bad since losing someone I've loved for almost a year (not by death). The cravings were fucking horrible and I've gotten into it again. I'm depressed or feel physically shitty if I don't have it. I can't deal with losing people. I have go cling on to them, and if I lose them, or even think I do, I go fucking insane. I need a new way to deal with shit, cause this isn't working.

Dude, I'm just a kid and while you don't say how old you are, you're probably way older than me if you're into heroin. But I just wanted to say get help, man. You need professional treatment because you're obviously not equipped, or ready, to deal with this yourself.

I know I'm lucky, in a strange way, because I was very young when I lost two members of my family. I'm also lucky because my dad and uncles are always there for me if I need them. You said you have people you trust, you just don't talk about your problems with them. I think you should trust them enough to tell them about your problem so they can help you get help. If the drug thing takes over, you'll never get to the real problems underneath, dude. So you gotta deal with the drug problem.

Too young to preach, and wouldn't know heroin if I saw it, but I am very sorry things are so bad for you right now. I hope you go get help, you sound like a dude that deserves better. You care about others, but you gotta care about yourself first, bro.

[Chris.]

I also agree - the next step is to get help and improve. You need to seek help in two different departments:

1) counseling - to stop the clinging and other reasons

2) drug counseling (or rehab) - to stop the heroin or other drugs.

I know we try to find something to heal the pain or get us to cope - but drugs is not one. I just had to fired a employee for doing heroin while at work - and no one in the family knew about her problem, and she was forced into rehab in California. It sucks to have to seek help, and we want to do things ourselves, but we sometimes need help - and we sometimes CANT do things ourselves. Seek help - and improve yourself for the better.



Best wishes,
Chris