My story (may trigger)

[Bunny]

Ok so I'm not sure why I feel the need to write this but here is my story of experience with self harm.

I learned of it from my sister. She did it everyday and had an ED. She was in and out of hospitals for over two years. Then she recovered after months of therapy.

When I was about 12 almost 13 I cut. My dad left and everything was bad. So cutting provided release. After months of this I realized it was wrong. So I stopped. Then about a year and a half later I started. This time because of my ex(MP). MP was my life but he took off for what seemed to be forever. So my new bf(now ex LC) helped me stop. And then we broke up. So I started dating my current bf (EC) He made me so happy. But yet again something happened. My uncle moved in. I was not happy with this at all. So about a month after he moved in I started. I felt horrible making EC deal with me through that. But when he found out I relapsed we layed there in silence. Then we talked about it. He made me realize that if i continue he will take action. It scared me. So much that I thought I would lose him. I didn't want to lose him. So I stopped. I have now been clean of cutting for about three months. This past Monday was hard but I remembered that fear. I told myself he is there for me. So I mellowed out and took a breath.

I'm not gonna lie. Some days are horrible and make me want to. But I will not go back to that misery. So for all of you out there trying to stop cutting, you will stop. One day you will have that moment where everything just falls into place. Keep trying I believe in you. PM me anytime. But more importantly believe in yourself.

And EC thank you for helping me find myself. I now know what happiness is. You brought me to life. Six months strong. You are my everything. I love you and can't wait to spend my life with you.

I hope I inspired someone with this story<33

[escape_thereal_world]

It is inspiring, very. But I just want to remind you...find something else, as well as EC, to provide you with the strength to not cut. It's just a security blanket to find more than one reason not to. I am happy to hear you're three months clean! That's amazing! Congrats on that

[amystery]

Thanks for sharing your story and congrats for going without selfharm for three months. =)

[BrokenGirl]

wow! that's amazing you made it that long! you inspired me for sure! i have someone who's there for me like that too i just still find it hard to stop! but i'll have made it a month as of tomorrow so ya! i still really feel like it but thank you for inspiring me with that!

[OohLaLa]

My boyfriend is always there for me when I need him.
It's really nice and comforting to know that I hae someone. =]
he helps me.
he makes me realise that there are other things I can do instead of SH.
=]

[Magical Forest.]

Thankyou for sharing your story with us
It's nice to read about these things, and it shows people that it is possible to do.

We all need people for support, but I agree with mystery. Make sure you have other ways to deal with not cutting, doing it for yourself is much easier to stick to, but it is great to do it for someone else too!

x

[Gidig]

This is an amazing story, I'm glad you've shared with us. =)

I am going to move this to the Recovery Stories thread, since I feel it's better suited there.

Maria.