ranting bout everything.... sorry

[xCoralinex94]

Dont no if this goes here if not feel free to move So i guess ive just been thinking a lot today about y im even here. i seriously dont no and its driving me crazy. i feel like just breaking down and crying, ive been keeping my feelings locked inside for years and im finally starting to lose it... I cant break down tho cause my moms gonna get home soon and then shell be all like "whats wrong" and i just cant tell her theres just to much and shed never understand. So i have to keep pushing all this back and i just dont no how much longer i can do it! and on top of that i just want to cut, it helps deal with all of this... but yet i dont cause i havent in 5days and tho it dont seem long im just glad i havnt for that long. but i want to now but yet dont and i dont no!!!! im just soo confused and just dont no bout anything anymore. And on top of this im all worked up about this summer. Ive just been worried bout never goin to b able to see my boyfriend and thinking when am i ever gonna to be able to see him? and so im worked up and have convinced myself i wont see him all summer and that he'll break up with me. Tho who nos ive just convinced myself this cause im so worked up. And then my moms been flippin out cause "the house is a mess and we never do anything to help her." Theres just sooo much stuff goin on at once and like i said i just dont no how much longer i can take it... its all building up, driving me crazy and i just dont no what to do!!! theres like a million thoughts running thro my head and i cant even think straight!!!!! sorry for ranting and sorry its long i just need some way to get it all out and ranting helps... sorry for wasting anyones time =/