My life is pointless, and I'm so damn sick of living it.

[MadPoet]

Exactly what the title says.
My life is pointless, and I hate it. I never do anything. I just sit on my computer, and listen to music, and do absolutely nothing. I have no friends, no one ever calls me, no one even glances at me on the rare occasion that I decide to go to school.

I'm like anti-social, or something. When someone comes to the front door I make someone else answer it and then go sit in my room and stare at the floor. When someone I don't know very well IM's me, we have about 1/4 of a conversation, and then I can't even think of anything else to say.

No one wants to even talk to me. I guess I'm a loser. And it's true, I have no life. Like I said, it's just pointless for me to live.... it really is. So, why am I still here? Why am I alive? I just don't get it. There's no reason for me to be alive right now. There really isn't.

I scare myself so much, always thinking about suicide, about ways that you can kill yourself. Writing about suicide, thinking about it, listening to music about it.. ugh. And, I guess you could say the pills have helped how I act a bit, and how I deal with things, but they haven't made the feelings go completely away. They haven't made the want and urge to go into my room and cut myself again go away. I'll still give them time but, I'm not expecting my problems to just magically go away, no matter what I take. And the thing is - I can't deal with these problems.

Therapy, sure, maybe it will help?
But right now, I'm still stuck, still wishing I wasn't here. I just don't feel like I want to live anymore...
It would hurt my mom and my sister, but I'm convinced that they could get over it in time. But me, I can't get through or over anything. So what other way is there?

[emerson]

Therapy might help. It won't solve all your problems, but I think it's worth a try.

I'm in a similar situation, Amanda. I have no friends, except one, and I deal with it by self-medicating (not pills, just watching television and youtube all day- which numbs the mind and, along with Lexapro, stops me from becoming too depressed or crazy). So, I'm basically sedating myself because otherwise I'd have to deal with myself.

The thing is, you're the only one with the power to ultimately change your life. You can try therapy (and I suggest you do), but otherwise you'll have to make a change for the better. As for suicide, it's never helped anyone (except for some very extreme and rare cases that don't apply here). If living seems pointless, I think dying young is hugely more sad and pointless. The first step to feeling better might be the concentrate on lively things, NOT on music and thoughts that focus on suicide. You can control what you think about most of the time, and it's the first step to feeling better and acting more the way you want to act. Find something to concentrate on other than suicide and your own misery- is there some activity or hobby that you like? Can you join a play or a sport team or something? Can you try running for a certain number of minutes a day, or biking for even just walking? Exercise not only gives you something healthy to focus on but, as you've probably heard, it actually makes you feel better mentally.

The world is a big, big place with lots of opportunities. It's up to you what you do. I think you're underestimating your own power in this situation.

Good luck, and PM me if you fancy any more advice! (or if you just need someone to listen to you rant or something, which I'm probably better at anyway PM me anytime)

[ChloeBean]

-hugs tightly-
I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I feel the same way. I only have a few friends and I get made fun of, because I'm quiet. Life can be a prison or it can be the best thing. You just have to find the things you enjoy in life. Life can be very pointless at times, but you just have to tell yourself that things will get better. That's sounds soo cliche right now, but it's true. Keep you head up, hun. Pm me anytime. (:

[Hyper Sonic]

I could have wrote this thread myself
dunno what to say to you but I'm sure you'll pull yourself out of it

[LizzieLikeWoah! :D]

Heyy, It's Lizzie. & You Don't Know Me. But Girl I Know How You Feel I Struggle Through It Everyday. I Started Cutting & Drinking & Drugs All Because Of A Guy Who Broke My Heart. I Go To School Or I Try To & I Get Called A Whore & A Bitch. Sorry For The Language. But It's True. & I Go To School With That Same Damn Fake Ass Smile Everyday & Trying To Hide The Tears & The Pain. But I Just Hold My Head Up High & Have That Fuck You Attitude Now. I've Learned To Stop With The Self Mutilation. All Because Of To Write Love On Her Arms. LOVE Really Is The Movement! & If You Ever Need Any Help I'm Here. I've Been Through It. I Understand You're Pain. & I'll Be Your Friend. I Promise.

[nevergiveup]

I am a 24 year old guy and is almost on the point of ending up similar to you guys but with a difference I brought it on myself. You all seem to have pain inflicted on you by somebody else. I had a really high paying job due to the good education I have with almost half the year off. I had al my life set out for me. But it all got on top of me I always wanted more and was never happy with what I had even though I had success in everything i still wanted more and ended up getting sacked from work due to stealing ( imagine making 5000 euros a month and getting caught for stealing something worth 100 euros). Now its difficult to find a job even though I've got a good education due to the bad name put around by the company. I cannot see people who know me because everyone asks me about the job and i don't know what to say. I had really worked hard for the job and now wrecked it you feel your life is useless. But I believe in never giving up like all of you should. Life is hard theres no doubt about it. But where there is a will there is a way. So don't try to pass time watching tv and on the internet but interact with people. Find a hobby anything so long as its challenging. I'm doing things which up to 2 months ago I would of laughed at people doing them, really. But it helps it lets your mind rest and gives you a meaning. i hope you all find peace of mind and happiness. One last thought - be happy with what you have and enjoy anything you can.