I'm scared :/

[Rainbow Dash]

I'm unemployed due to medical problems. I get tired easily due to my disability and I get anxiety attacks. I'm on benefits. I left school with no GCSEs due to medical problems and I was bullied so I rarely went.

I'm re-sitting Maths and English GCSE. I plan on doing GCSE Psychology and I.C.T. next year, I then plan to do A Levels (one in Psychology and I'm not too sure what else) and then do a degree in Psychology. In my head this is a pretty good plan.

I'm just scared I will be unemployed for the rest of my life. The only way I can get these qualifications is doing them part-time. If I went to college full-time I would get unbelievably tired. I would also get insanely depressed and probably get suicidal again.

I'm sick of my life. I'm sick of having to do things in small chunks.

There's no way I could get a proper job. I would like to be a therapist or Psychologist but I doubt that will ever happen.

I don't want to be one of those people who hasn't had a job in 50 years. I don't want to live in this shit-hole-village for the rest of my life